A poem called “A Darkened, upside down Rainbow”

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A Darkened, Upside Down Rainbow,

by theamazinJ

Quiet in the field,
I reach for hay,
I sit down on a rock,
and I look into the distance.
suddenly, I see
a rainbow in the distance,
it looks unusual
it looks peculiar,
it looks revealing,
it looks profound,
it does not have the
bright colors
it used to have.
The rainbow has been darkened,
it has been tossed out
by the streams of black rows
of evil swirling from space.
What happened?
The rainbow fell,
the arc of the rainbow turned upside down,
and the feelings everyone has
sounded off in horror and anger.
What have we done?
It is a troubling question.
What can we do?
It is a troubling answer.
It is a catch 22 of horror
that we seek
to rebuke, but can’t,
that we seek
to solve, but can’t either.
Sometimes we think we can,
and that only drives us
madder and madder as hell.
the madness drives us
to not think,
to not be logical,
and to think too emotional.
The arc of the rainbow
is a sacred covenant.
It is a holy wholly purely
spiritually mention of diversity
of neurodiversity and of
growth of the world,
though, we saw it not,
instead we saw it go bad,
go evil, and go sideways
and upside down into the night.
What can be done?
diversity of the human race
from neurodiversity
to diversity at larger view,
this is the only way
for everyone
to debate,
to envision,
to listen to different views,
to see different things,
and to accept
and to understand
the differences in our world.
how to rebuild the arc of the rainbow?
the rainbow is pure
the rainbow is bright
the rainbow is colorful,
and the rainbow is dark now,
respect the rainbow,
respect everyone
respect nature
respect everything you see around you,
Most importantly,
respect the future
from your interactions
with nature,
with people,
with other living animals,
and with how you do things
as we are personhood,
The rainbow guides us,
the rainbow purifies us,
the rainbow gives us answers,
the rainbow needs our help.
Let’s bring back the rainbow
to bright and full of colors,
allow it to flourish
with the multiplicity
of the human race.
For I am used,
I am scattered around,
feeling undignified,
not respected,
and hurt
with a run of blood.
Though, the rainbow
guides us all
to feel proud,
to feel happy,
and to feel
a part of the natural
personhood we all are
and maintain.
I will feel respected,
I will feel dignified,
and the rainbow
will give all of us
the distinction of
who we are as
I am thou.

A Poem of Apologies


by theamazinJ

I hurt,
I hurt a lot,
I give pain,
I give pain a lot,
I gave pain,
I gave pain a lot,
I trigger,
I trigger pain a lot,
I feel pain,
from the hurt
I have felt
all my life.
From that pain,
I have made everyone
feel that pain and more,
it is not sad,
it is not a tragedy,
it is just an apology.
My spoons felt low
for far too long
my feelings that hurt
made everyone feel pain.
I sat in the corner
one day all by myself,
wondering what I have done.
I hurt,
I hurt a lot,
I gave pain,
I gave pain a lot,
the pain was emotional,
and very hurtful
to everyone around me.
The emotions swirling,
the emotions reeling,
and everyone’s
emotions feel angrier
and angrier and angrier.
I could not stand
the pain I was always feeling
from many people around me
in the past,
so I used the pain
I was given from everyone
used it against them.
This is not fair
this is not justice
this is not justified.
I do feel stigmatized,
I do feel stereotyped,
I do feel oppressions,
I do feel the Autistic community
doing the same things that
I and them feel all the time
and doing it to each other
all the time to this day.
does feeling pain mean we need to hurt each other back?
does feeling pain mean we are justified as tragedies and burdens?
Pain from the way society makes many individuals feel
Pain from the way we all hurt each other
every day of our lives.
Acceptance means also accepting the pain,
accepting the grief,
accepting the way everyone interacts.
We do not need to make others feel bad
because everyone experiences life differently,
but we also learn that
neurodiversity is
accepting our pain,
accepting everyone’s pain,
accepting the way we are and interact,
accepting everyone’s nuisances
and idiosyncrasies,
and whoever everyone wants to love
with their family, their friends,and romances,
and what everyone chooses in their life,
and ways everyone interacts,
accepting the love everyone gives everyone
accepting that everyone does not like
everyone’s thoughts and voices
all the time.
We debate,
we converse,
we share,
we help each other,
we never can yell at any one,
we can never talk badly about others,
no matter how much pain we feel from a person,
we open our minds to
everyone’s thoughts
and most importantly,
we support everyone
with our thoughts
with our dreams
with whatever we want to pursue
to help the communities
in our society,
we support everyone’s
voices, vocations, interests,
and make everyone’s dreams come true.
I learned a lot through the years,
some that I just want to forget
that caused me pain that eventually hurt everyone,
some that I will always remember,
some that I will teach myself,
some that I will cherish,
some that I cannot forget,
but will learn to tweak to make good,
all of that, I will always remember.
My apologies to everyone
who I have touched
My apologies to everyone
who hopefully
will listen and understand,
and who will learn the responsibility
I am taking.
Neurodiversity is taking responsibility
to each other,
for everything we say and do,
for the way we all think,
for the way we individually speak,
for the way we all want for our individual futures,
and the way we all accept each other
regardless of
who we are that makes up our individual identity,
what we want in our life,
what we need to live our life
How we can all help each other
improve how we execute our ideas and creativity.
This is the responsibility I am taking,
this is the responsibility we all are and need to be taking everyday,
and this is what we all need to learn
everyday to move forward and pay it forward.
I am sorry, I am deeply sorry to everyone.
Thank you.

A Poem called ‘When Light meets Dark

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When Light Meets Dark,
by theamazinJ

Crashing into each other
like a force of nature
like a force of oppression,
like a force of ableism,
like a force of racism,
like a force of sexism,
like a force of anti-semitism,
like a force of islamophobia,
like a general force of all forces
that attract or battle
with each other,
the forces glide over one another
and blend through or destroy
what was.
It is difficult to interpret,
it is hard to understand,
the forces of light and dark,
coming together to
build a sword
to fight a war.
I’d hate to say it,
I’d hate to remember
that the battle is endless.
Acceptance vs. Hatred,
Light vs. Dark,
Love vs. Evil,
Helping and supporting vs. eradicating,
Building a future vs. destroying what we can have after the present,
Time is of the essence,
We strive for our voices to be heard,
to go to battle with the voices that oppress,
so we can be:
and let the light meet the dark.
cause in the end,
darkness is just a shadow of the light,
that we need all along,
so don’t fear the forces
helping us shine the torch of humanity
without extreme viewpoints pointing
us in the wrong direction.

A Poem Called “A Blend of Humanity”

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A Blend of Humanity,

by theamazinJ

washing over our hands in hands,
we mix ourselves into one,
not knowing what is right,
or what is wrong,
and complying to the societal twin,
do we go left?
do we go right?
do we go up?
do we go down?
do we just blend in?
Mixing and passing is all in-between,
passing to be the person
we may not want to be.
does individuality surface for everyone?
does it take guts to be our own person?
Following others into a destiny of failings
is not really being true to
what we are or ought to be.
Flying high or dazing around
or standing in one place,
we filter what we are and
what we say to blend in to
the majority culture
we think we need to be.
No one is glorious
no one is unfitting
no one is hurt
everyone is puzzled
to fit in or not,
fitting in to a culture
depends on what we want,
and fitting into ourselves
is all that we got.
So, how do we fit into a piece
of culture that we live in
to structure our days
to organize our thoughts
make the difference
we want to make.
Some people shy away
while others
lie awake in to the party,
What is the medium we all have to be?
What is the break we all need to shy away from?
How do we moderate our emotions so we don’t fall a part?
into the wind,
gusts of glory,
filled with clouds and sun in the sky,
I hear you,
I hear you,
I hear you and
all I know is
you just gotta be me (you),
you just gotta be cool,
and you just gotta be schooled
to be the person
everyone can count on in society
that works hard to be original
to be creative
and to work hard
to the guts,
the glory,
and the rewards that reap.
you just gotta believe
forget about everyone else’s problems
forget everyone’s else’s motives,
and forget all the people
who don’t understand
and grasp,
so what needs to be done
to make a difference is
the way it’s set in our minds.
Because the only thing
that matters is:
How you do it,
what you do,
and the connections you make
in doing it,
so let’s be connected
and blend in to humanity
with individuality
we all want others to
receive us by.
Count on yourself,
count on the connections
you make throughout your life,
Anything can be done,
so now let’s all just:
Rock on to the other side
and make our marks
that rewards us
in society
all the way
until we reach the other side!

A Poem called ‘A Unicorn’s Adventure’

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A Unicorn’s Adventure,

by theamazinJ

I fight
I rise
I sail into the winds
I rise
I fall
I fight
I flow through the night sky
to reach to the stars ahead.
I fly from cloud to cloud
in the midst of the daytime sky.
I rise
I rise
I rise once again,
I fall into the body
where life hits me the hardest
with my heart open and wide
for everyone and anyone.
I am filled with love,
preach the love,
and battle the scenes
of what perceptions of reality
majority of society generally sees
and views me being different
and want to change
the majority’s misperceptions
of who I am.
I am narrow
I am wide
I am open
I am closed
I am all the in-between
I am shouting
I am whispering
I am quiet
I am hopeful
I am wishing the
majority of people in
society see me as who I am
without seeing me as less than
or nothing at all.
I am brilliant
I sometimes don’t think things through
I am curious
I am kind
I am a wizard
I am a person
I am a high ranking order
I am full of heart
I am full of love
I love you
I love all of you
I am filled with creativity
I am filled with utter happiness
I am quite eclectic
I am quite exasperating
and not well understood.
I am you in the mirror
who looks in the mirror
or even oblivious to what
I truly am,
I am the Unicorn
flying over your homes at night
carrying the gold,
watching over you,
and embarking on who I am.
Because we all are me,
we all have the unicorn
and we all have the love
that intensifies even
when we are upset or very very angry,
because we are human,
we can just be
and we can dominate our own life
in spite of everyone else
who tries to influence us to be like them
and hurt like them
and be happy like them
and do anything else like them.
The unicorn’s adventure is all of us
and we just need to be what
we want to be without
no one’s approval
no one telling us
our personhood is
crazy or invalid or needs changing.
This Unicorn’s adventure
helps all of us
even if we don’t even know it
because the unicorn
saves us, and
helps us
and complete our missions.