drive mom crazy

Work hard for the triumphs you can make…

And to the ones who don’t, look at those people who do to do it themselves!

People crave affection, People crave connection, People crave whatever they can do for inspiration to do good deeds in this world. The most important plan we all have at one point in our life is to follow someone or something which has inspired us to do well. Some people truly follow in a person’s footsteps while other people don’t. There is always people we want to follow in our life, but we must also give respect to our own talents to succeed. Some people journey in this world wanting to following in their idol’s footsteps without making their own mark. The people who make their own mark in life develop their own strength to do well as their idols.

It is not necessary to be exactly like your idol, but to use their success as guidance for your own success. It is a different kind of feeling opening up to knowing we are all unique. For instance, someone may love Vascular Ultrasound while another person may love Echocardiography, or you may find a unique person who loves both.

The love for a career path any one chooses like Temple Grandin’s passion for Animal Science or my passion for the Art of Anatomy especially in the Human body drives the force to know it well. When someone has a driving force to know their love for something very well, nothing can stop the person from learning it very well almost perfectly. The most important aspect of our life is to learn, do, and perfect the passion on our own.

Ultrasound Technology gives me the driving force to know the Anatomy very well without any weakness. It is a hard task at times, but it can be done. The Human Body is like a machine which was created to keep us functioning at our very best when we are strong enough to not let stressors get to us to make us weaker. We have an infinite mind which we can only use well enough if we learn how to use it to optimize our anatomy to function in the world.

The Circulatory system in our bodies creates a ongoing transport of nutrients and wastes. Like the mind gives us the capacity to live comfortably in our lives if only we not let too much stress smack us hard in the face. Breathe each day with each breath of fresh air by letting yourself do the thing which makes you the most happy to live your life to the fullest. Never forget when you are performing the passion at the very best of your abilities, and don’t let nothing stand in the way of getting the job done.

REMEMBER: There is working to move pass the past and their is just working hard enough to live what you are meant to do!

posting more soon,

OUT, J

I know it’s been a while since my last post, but here is a poem I just wrote

The year we discovered our inner peace,
by J.S.R.

The people stand
the people fall,
the people rise again
to find themselves
initially scarred by
the fall.

Finding their way
against the wind
beating down on them,
arrives a dark dome shaped
crystal flying emerging from
the distance from space.

A door opens
from the emerging crystal
and once the steps emerge
two figures walk out of the
crystal floating like
transient angels.

Some people around
begin to fall forward
letting others move passed
them until it is time
to take the hands of the
angels moving toward them.

Once the angels have taken
the hands of the people moving forward,
an emerging wing appears from
the crystal,
and the crystal begins to
fly away deep in the dark space sky.

The others left behind
are wondering for a
brief minute what just happened,
but just as they wonder, the sun
beams so bright from a cloudless
day with emerging respect for peace.

During the night
a boy and girl cry
since their father who died
a few years back is not with them
and their mother was taken in by
the angels in the crystal.

They are left alone in a house
of nothingness. They have to
find a life on their own.
They feel scared
They feel obligated to do
something about their loneliness.

The door bell suddenly rings
and the boy opens the door.
Out of no where an angel appears
where the crystal stood a few
hours earlier.
The boy cries…

The angel takes his hand
while asking for his sister’s hand
as well.
the angel tells them “Don’t cry
my young ones, you are the chosen ones.”
The boy and girl weep endlessly.

The boy asks “Why?”
the girls asks “Why? Why are we here still
without our mommy and daddy?”
the angel answers with a sigh,
“Listen to your heart and
bring balance to the world.”

The boy wakes up in his bed
and yells to his sister in the bright
morning sun, “I know what I want to
do sis” and the sister nods her head
in agreement with him.
she says “Tell every body to be happy for their life.”

The boys says “And tell them
their is nothing more any one can do
except to be who you are and make their
mark with their gift with feeling any sadness
for being alive. It should feel good to be alive
and sense the magic of the world.”

The angel looks outside their window
and smiles as the boy and girl run around
making the most of their new profound
existence. The people around in their homes
trying to make peace in their minds from
all the pain that is settled within.

(posting soon enough more….)

OUT, J

This was too much for a tweet, so look here

Recently, I noticed Autism Speaks tweeted about how in 45 years The United States of America will be a country of Autistic people. I saw it was even retweeted by someone I follow on my twitter page as well. When I went on Autism Speaks twitter page just now before I posted this, I just noticed it is no longer on their twitter page. Did Autism Speaks realize what they said was absurd?  What was the meaning of Autism Speaks statement? What is the message that they are trying to convey to the public? Is it a scare tactic! Is it really the truth! Autism does not make us horrible nor does it make us incapable.  Autistic people can achieve and fit in to society because it is a handicap like any other.  So why make such an unrealistic and a false statement about Autism? It is a very unrealistic statement since Autism has been around for generations.
Many people have only just begun to acknowledge it in the past 10 years. Autistic people can and will succeed if only the negativity can stop trying to say having Autism makes a person a failure.   There are some conditions which can incapsulate us and make us feel weak. If only every one can feel strong enough to use their condition to feel good and embody strength from any one’s conditions. Autism Speaks falters to understand the idea someone who has any condition even be Autistic can succeed. Autistic people can at times develop seizures and many sensory issues, but it does not mean you classify those people as a failure. We live on this planet to earn our way up the ranks until we die and move on. Instead of speaking of the issues Autism Speaks brings up by saying we are all in a crisis, only then Autistics can soon be a part of society. Well, What’s wrong with Autistics being a part of society? Every thing does happen for a reason and we need to accept those reasons to live our life. May be the reason every one is acknowledging Autistic people in the last 10 years is because every one finally sees the hurt Autistic people have had through the years. I am not saying Neurotypicals don’t go through pain, they do, but this is different. This is Autism!
Autistic people grow up to be functioning Adults! It’s a fact! Believe me Autism Speaks, you need to understand the adults in this world who have Autism and will grow old with it. Autistics need patient people to help.  Autistics have trouble doing it on our own, but can with the right support given to them can succeed.  We can and will be able to move behind the low expectations that Autism Speaks conveys to the public. For all the Autistics living their childhood now, the earlier Neurotypicals help them, the more they will be more competent Adults than some Autistic Adults today who are struggling from lack of early intervention. The older Adult Autistic population are suffering with Autism because no one recognized Autism when they were growing up and through their early adulthood. This is a shame, but at least the newer generations are compensating for that. Why does not Autism Speaks try to help those Adults who are trying to fit in to society now?
It does not matter if you are in an organization like Autism Speaks or just an average person, you can help out someone with any handicap to ease their pain. Autism guarantees success if only every one brings their heads together to recognize it early and let Autistic people embrace themselves like every one else.  Strengthening egos can make any one more happy.  What will you do?  Fight for the rights of Autistic people who need positive reinforcement to succeed or spread the negative words of failure Autism Speaks conveys! It’s your choice.
OUT, J

The American with Disabilities Act 20 year Celebration

Yesterday The American with Disabilities Act had its 20 year Celebration! 20 years of protecting people with Disabilities or should it be called 20 years of the push for Human Rights. The ADA may seem finished, but they have only just begun on the quest for Human Rights. President Obama signed a law yesterday revising and implementing Title II and Title III.

Today there is still a few people around even people I know who see a person with a disability as someone who can’t succeed because of the term ‘person with a disability’. The terminology does not seem to recognize the talents and abilities any one has. If the people who don’t understand had a chance to watch the ADA Celebration yesterday, they would understand the abilities every one has as well as the abilities people do not have. The way I see it is there is always something someone else can not seem do. A disability to me means a weakness any body has, but can strengthen if any one has the willpower to do it. Although people should focus on their abilities or strengths to succeed, it is important to also strengthen the weaknesses to be able to live a better life. On the other hand, some weaknesses need to be compensated due to circumstances.

We in the Autistic Community and the rest of the disability community need to build our confidence to succeed.

more about this topic coming soon…as well as other posts!

OUT, J

The ADA celebration at the WhiteHouse!!

You can Watch this on my site now!

Hope you enjoy it!!

J

My experiences at the Autism Society of America Conference from my first talk on a Keynote Panel and a good link to the IACC meeting in July

First, here is a very good meeting from the Interagency Autism Coordinating Committee!

IACC 2010

Next, here are a few pictures I took.

On Saturday July 10, 2010, I went to Dallas, Texas to speak at the Autism Society of America conference. I woke up eager to go and see what doors will open up for me. This was the first time I was traveling by myself. The Autism Society arranged for a driver to take me to the airport. It really took the burden of driving to the airport at 4a.m. off my mind. There were many things to figure out on my way to the airport. I was nervous and started to wonder, How was I going to do every thing myself? Who was I going to meet? What kind of experience was I going to have? For every fear I had, I faced the fear and went through every door I was expected to go through.

When I arrived in Dallas I immediately met my driver to ride in a sedan to the Hyatt Regency Dallas; the home of the Wolfgang Puck restaurant 560. When the hotel was approaching I immediately saw this long tower with a globe at the top. It looked beautiful. The driver told me it was a restaurant. When I arrived in the lobby I immediately walked to the counter to check into the hotel. I was told that I could check into my room. It made me feel more relaxed since I was concerned about having to lug my suitcase around with me all morning. I finally made it to my hotel room which was quite large with a King Size bed and free wifi. I set my clothes on the bed, fixed myself up and went downstairs.

I checked in to the conference. My first impression was to take a deep breath and walk through the large exhibit hall. I was given a badge to wear when I met Sarah Mitchell from the Autism Society. It was nice to be welcomed to the conference by her. I wanted to meet with the other panelists who will be presenting with me the next day. I felt it would be good to do a run through for the next morning. As I navigated through hallways, I introduced myself telling people to have a great day. Two days earlier I had spoken to Sandy Yim, a blogger who would be on the panel with me. When I was talking to Valerie Paradiz and a friend of hers, Sandy Yim spotted me and went over to me to introduce herself. I didn’t realize the speed of what was going on. Every time I met someone new at the conference, I was curious to know if I was transitioning the conversations appropriately, but every one told me I was not being rude. There were many people who wanted to talk to me.

Two days earlier, Sandy Yim asked me if I wanted to walk through the exhibit hall with her. I told her “that would not be a problem.” A couple hours later, she and I did walk through the exhibit hall together. We took our time walking through the exhibit hall even though I did briefly walk through it before I met her. When I was walking around by myself, I came upon a conversation between Jack Robison and a toy maker named Bud. I started listening to the interesting conversation about how Bud, who is on the Autism Spectrum, is a Visual Thinker who creates toys for children with Autism. Very interesting toys by the way!! There are many ways a person like myself thinks in Pictures as I began to tell them how I think in Pictures too and that is why I like Anatomy. Every thing seemed to go right when I spoke to any one there. When I was walking thoroughly through the exhibit hall with Sandy Yim, we stopped at the Seamless Socks exhibit. I had never heard of Seamless Socks before. When they knew we were both bloggers, they told us we can review their socks on our website after they give us Seamless Socks to try on. I am still waiting for my pair of Seamless Socks to arrive in the mail to try on and review.

Every time I spend my time talking to another successful Autistic person, I feel proud of what I accomplished so far. Sometimes when I see an Autistic person who is struggling to succeed with their many sensory issues, I think to myself, Why me? Why do I succeed as an Autistic? I am still Autistic, but many people who are ignorant don’t think I am. It is like people don’t generally feel Autistic people can succeed because of the stigma AutismSpeaks represents. I feel it is my goal to show the world the beauty of Autism and how Autistics CAN succeed.

One of the most interesting set of people I met at the conference were the people working the Google exhibit. I even took a picture with the Google people which you can see. They helped me create a Google Sketch Up from my fiction story Gregarious Revolution which hopefully many of you are eager to read more about!

I didn’t know what to expect for the next morning and I really felt a little nervous. The meeting that the other panelists and I had to run through before the presentation helped me become more comfortable with my surroundings. As I stepped out of the keynote presentation room after the meeting, I felt good walking around trying to talk to people. I kept on thinking I want to see what is inside the top of the dome at the Hyatt. Wolfgang Puck’s restaurant looked very interesting on the outside. All I got to see was how interesting it looked on the outside. I was wearing my Neurodiversity Tee Shirt with my Autistic Pride infinity symbol and met Melody Latimar who I communicated with by email a few weeks back about a few poems I wrote. When I met Melody, her first response she said to me was “You’re wearing my creation!” I didn’t know what to say, but she seemed to feel good about her symbol on my Tee Shirt I created.

I went to the DSM V committee meeting at the conference and came out of the meeting feeling good because I believe the changes are a first step to better understanding about Autism even though they should make a note in the DSM V about people currently diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome and PDD-NOS. Autism is a long a continuum in a spectrum, but many people already diagnosed with Asperger’s and PDD-NOS should not have to seek out a diagnosis of Autism Spectrum from a professional when the DSM V finally is published. They need to make sure people already diagnosed with Asperger’s and PDD-NOS can get their services still.

During the evening, I was talking much with Sandy Yim, other tweeters and met some other bloggers as well. I also met many This Emotional Life fans! Some of the fans were asking about my mom, but she was not at the conference. We talked a lot about how twitter helps Autistic people communicate better, how to live tweet, and other interesting topics sitting on the lobby couches. When it came to nighttime, we moved to the bar upstairs to meet some more people. At this point I was getting hungry for dinner, but at the same time I wanted to get know other people. The night felt good as I met new friends.

One of the topics we talked about was how Blogging and Tweeting are important tools to connect Autistic people like myself to be able to interact better in public by being more spontaneous. It makes it easier because we don’t have to see faces. When we do finally get to talk face to face, we can express ourselves a lot better. We also talked and laughed about many other things. When we all did eventually get dinner, I ordered a steak because I was so hungry with potato, corn, salad, and a Ginger Ale.

After I ate, I eventually felt so tired after 9pm Central time. I decided to go to my hotel room to get ready for bed. I wanted to do well at my presentation. Unfortunately, I could not attend an event I was invited to at the conference in the downstairs lower lobby. I felt if I had not been tired from traveling all day, I would have definitely went and enjoyed myself.

The next day I woke up actually around 4:30am Central time, but had a wake up call at 6:30am Central time. I began rehearsing what I needed to do in the hotel room. I had free wireless hook up, but I didn’t have a laptop with me. When 6:30 approached, I picked up my wake up call, walked to the elevator, and walked in to the lobby area. I ate a big breakfast of a stack of pancakes, bacon, and fresh squeezed Orange Juice. I could not finish my meal and ate as much as I could. I walked down to the keynote area where I saw what looked like a big auditorium with an amazing background with 2 screens on the sides. It was my first time being on a keynote panel, but certainly will not be my last.

It felt good being on the panel. Whenever I try something new especially having a whole audience watching me talk, my nervous-excited senses try to overwhelm me. Once I have done anything once, the succeeding times always gets much better. After the panel was over, many people stood up with cheers to honor the panel I was a part of. I had been amazed about how many people loved the presentation. I keep on inspiring others to become better equipped in life to do great things and it makes me feel proud.

Afterward, I was talking with a few people I met for a long time. Unfortunately, I could not attend many event meetings because I was busy talking with many people. I did in fact go to another talk about ‘Other Neurological causes of Autism’ which was given by a geneticist at Montefiore Medical Center.

I eventually had to head back to the airport where my flight was delayed for over an hour. The flight home was very good. At first I thought I had a whole row to myself, but the stewardess suddenly put a lonely young boy in my row. It felt good making a child feel better on the airplane since he was all by himself. He showed me how to use Nintendo Gameboy DS and showed me some of his games. Afterward, I had taken out my word puzzles to show him where we both did a few puzzles together. It was fun! When the flight landed finally, I knew my trip was finally over and back to reality.

Overall I had an amazing time meeting new friends who blog/tweet and many other people as well. I am very happy I was able to go through a door which has the potential to open more doors for me.

I also wanted to go to Autreat 2010 the week before, but I could not take two vacations two weeks in a row. There is always next year for Autreat 2011.

OUT, J

A Neurodiverse world where every one specialize in unique perspectives to gain momentum

We live here,
We live there,
We live to reflect
what we have done,
We live to deflect
the people we need to shun,
from much pain
we have felt.
From much sorrow
we have heard,
from much laughter
we have smiled, and
from much anger
we have experienced.

In our lives, our
emotions
may contradict how
we think,
but we still live with
perspectives in our lives
to specialize,
to conceptualize
what we embark
on in the world,
with a gift,
and a skill,
we can traverse.

Sometimes we may get in the way
of what we can truly inspire,
Sometimes other people do this
to capture us to expire.
Sometimes we need to distinguish
the goals we need to fundamentally
speak out the very real desires we may have.
Arriving in to the age of relief
when we realize what has to be done
to survive and what is necessary
for us to believe what is done,
will be succeeded to what will be.

A future ahead of us
where we head to the top.
Not every one can reach the spot
where you can stand on the peak,
watching every one surround you
gathering to be close enough
to hear you speak.
The harder you work to
live your dream,
the more you work
to reach the peak,
the closer you get to reaching your heart.

(Some people don’t realize what they are truly destined to be doing. Sometimes it may take a lifetime or sometimes it may take another lifetime. A lot of times many people know what they are truly destined to do when they are born in to this world, thinking about it constantly, and unable to speak it until later in life. Although some people become engrossed in what other people blind them to thinking they are destined to do where they never fulfill the dream they always had. It is sad when you see someone blinded to their dream because of someone or some thing called ‘fast money’. Remember the story of ‘Tortoise and the hare’, it will help you realize what you know what needs to be done in your life.)

Been a little bit anxious of late, but definitely more posts coming very soon… A post coming soon on experiences being a speaker at the Autism Society of America conference this year! Drawings of mine revealed this week…

Have a Great Day!

OUT, J

Back to daily living after I made many connections at the Autism Society of America conference

Bringing life back together again today and every day moving forward. Life is generally filled with surprises, but you never know what’s going to happen next. You just have to live your daily life continuing to strive passed challenges and continue to do what you have always done in life: being fulfilled. Life may throw you curveballs or even screwballs, but you need to try to hit the ball. You may just one day see a not so perfect pitch and hit a home run like Alex Rodriguez or Albert Pujols. Life is an unexpected journey, we just have to soak up ourselves in the shower to get ready to meet the world around us.

I had a great time at the Autism Society of America conference in Dalla, Texas. I met many other bloggers, twitterers, fans of PBS’ This Emotional Life, and other great fascinating people. I am getting ready to start my week now, but no need to worry I will be posting about my adventures in Dallas at the conference soon with pictures as well. Just 2 words to say in regards to the panel I was on: Standing Ovation!

I really am very thankful I was be able to speak at the conference in Dallas this year. It was a wonderful opportunity for me.

Have a Fantastic day!!

posting soon,

OUT, J

I am off to the Autism Society of America Conference Today

I will be tweeting from the conference, so people can see what things are doing. I will be back on my website on Sunday for more posts.

Be sure to look out for more Gregrarious Revolution and some other great posts…and pictures I take!

Hang tight for and be well!

Wish me luck on Saturday morning! I know the trip will be great as well as the flight to and from Dallas!

Be back soon,

OUT, J

Zero in and never forget the change which needs to be made

Some things just never change or at least that is the perception most people say as people get older.  People can change! People direct themselves by using hard work and determination to change their negative ways.  People have the ability  to do this, but most people choose not to use their ability.  Thinking of how to do this and how to incorporate the need for a better human society, we need to start somewhere. So, why not now?

The very way of change we all need to consider is the act of giving, and not just taking.  An act of giving gives us the need to be a courteous, respectful, patient human being.  Those people who don’t give tend to lack patience and understanding.  We all are living on this planet and we all are striving to move forward when we eventually die.  Finding yourself stranded in the middle of crowd, you can find yourself in the middle of people who feel compelled to be who they are no matter how much their attitude needs improving.

Special people feel rhythm of our soul keeps on moving a long to be a better person each day.  A lot of people don’t feel this way. Instead they feel repelled to believe what they can achieve.  Every one can achieve changing attitudes by giving.  Give your heart, give your love, and most importantly give the skills to those who just don’t know.

Believe what you can do!

OUT, J

A cool picture entering the Light…

At the edge of the Light…

posting more soon enough,

OUT, J

A Voice for Autism

The government recently made a new connection with the Autistic community by confirming Ari Ne’eman to the National Council on Disability.  Ari not only has autism, but is a driving force in promoting education, awareness and understanding to the public.  It is to be hoped that by this confirmation it will help shed more light and a voice to not only the children, but the autistic adult.  There is a large population of adults with autism whose voices are not being heard.  Instead the focus is on the causes, cure, blame and birth rate of newly diagnosed cases.
We live in  a human society where we are judged harshly for not fitting into what society calls the “norm.” Many people use their reasoning to generalize how every one should be and not leaving room for those of us who are different. As an autistic adult I look at the world as an incongruent system that I must conform to.  I am not alone in thinking and feeling this way.  There are many individuals struggling to fit in to this world. Being different can work for some people who know how to navigate through the maze that we live by and can try to fit in.  We do applaud those who are different when they offer entertainment, creativity and scientific discoveries.  However, looking at the world it is not a kind place for those of us who are autistic.
In our culture it allows many people to live their life the way they want to, but those of us who are not neurotypical feel displaced.  We are living with unique minds trying to unravel the mysteries of fitting in like Sherlock Holmes solving a difficult case.  Some people feel they need life to change for them because the rejection they have to deal with on a daily basis destroys any sense of self.  So how and where can these changes start to happen for the adults living with autism?  Why does everyone forget that the autistic youngsters, will become an adult sooner then they realize? It would be good if some advances and acceptance were made for all individuals on the spectrum.
The National Council on Disability tries to encourage every one with a disability to strive to their fullest potential.  This means just because you have a disability, does not mean you are incapable to do anything. Disability is a label used to displace others who society feels cannot be or do anything.  Every one has an ability to move this world in whatever way they possibly can.  The more one realizes this it will facilitate the change needed in society.
People who are given labels are generally expected to act in a certain manner.  Their behave at times can be very outrageous.  It is accepted because of the label they have.  After all why should they act differently when it is expected and allowed.  Their behavior is unfair to every one else around them.  We should be teaching, not enabling them.  Some people need a lot more support and understanding to be taught how to function in society.  There is acceptable ways to live in this society while they may be different they have to be accepted to be accepted.  Changes can and will occur in time for it is a process of being patient, working hard and keeping our morale up.  The first step is getting rid of categorizing and labeling people. How can we do this?  Where can we start?  This can be done on a small level by every one of us.  On a larger scale by The National Council on Disability and other organizations.
So, Hopefully Ari will be able to fulfill some needed goals.
OUT, J

Riding in Trains with Asperger’s- A very good article from my friend in Adaptations, David Morris

David Morris

Riding In Trains With Asperger’sby David Morris

Like millions of New Yorkers, I commute on the Long Island Railroad. In many ways, my trip is an easy one. My home is within walking distance of the Douglaston Station of the Port Washington line, which makes getting into Manhattan a breeze, mainly because this train has one of the most reliable schedules in the LIRR system. Furthermore, I arrive at nearly all of my Manhattan destinations by way of Penn Station, which makes going home an easy task. However, my commute is complicated by one seemingly insignificant problem in my genetic makeup — I have Asperger’s syndrome.

For those who may have missed the recent spate of movies and books addressing it, Asperger’s is one of the autism spectrum disorders or ASDs. Like all ASDs, the symptoms of Asperger’s vary from person to person, and may include problems with sensory overload; poor social awareness involving personal habits and interactions with others; difficulty concentrating; the inability to discern speech patterns and non-verbal communication; and the inability to deal with changes in routines. Though I’ve probably had this disorder my whole life, I didn’t become aware of it until I was 16.

So how does having Asperger’s affect my commute by train? For me, the symptoms manifest themselves most when there is a change in my routine — such as when the train deviates from its printed schedule.

It used to be excruciating for me whenever I was late because of track work, or when the train had to stop mid-journey because two trains were occupying a single track. For most people, it may seem relatively insignificant whether a train arrives exactly where it should, exactly when it should; but  when you have Asperger’s, delays are intolerable and can lead to anxiety and outbursts. And because there is usually no one person responsible for the delays, my frustration can end up being directed toward anyone. I still remember a few years back, when my train stopped between the Auburndale and Bayside stations for nearly an hour. To cope with my aggravation, I ended up walking up and down the length of the car, snarling at anyone who approached me.

The problem of maintaining my routine becomes even more of an ordeal when I choose to dine on the train, usually at the end of the day.  Even though Asperger’s is not the same as obsessive compulsive disorder, I know that I have demonstrated symptoms of it in my eating rituals: I don’t start eating until we pull out of Penn Station; I can’t have the meal more than half finished before presenting my ticket to the conductor; and the meal cannot be finished until I’ve gotten past Woodside. Oh, and the dining process must be carried out across an entire row of seats. This last part is so important that I have been known to pace the length of the train, searching for a vacant row that will support crucial detail.

Maybe all of these things sound like minor inconveniences. But these nuisances have quickly escalated to major issues when I have occasionally forced my position on innocent passengers, to my own detriment. One night, a couple of years back, I was on my way home, having picked up my dinner at McDonald’s. I had gotten on to the train, just a couple of minutes before it pulled out of Penn Station, and consequently was having trouble locating an empty row. I felt myself getting more and more fed up as I passed through one car after another. Finally, I took out my anger by yelling at a group of passengers near the corner of the train car, before sitting down. I don’t remember what exactly I said, but evidently I was intimidating enough that one of the passengers spoke to a conductor. That conductor walked over to my seat and told me that he was going to have to call the police. This scared me into timidity, and I begged and pleaded with the conductor to the point where he reluctantly acquiesced and let me go.

This taught me an important lesson: Never get angry with people on the train. I do sometimes still get frustrated with security guards, conductors and the occasional fast food vendor at Penn Station. I started to make significant progress in overcoming this issue when, two and a half years ago, I began seeing a therapist entirely for the purposes of anger management. For years, I had been resistant to any change in my position that I was right and that my nemesis, the LIRR, was wrong. On some level, I knew how unreasonable this was, but I maintained it for a long period regardless. Like many people with Asperger’s, when I reached my 20s, I began to achieve a greater understanding of how the world works, rather than only considering my own point of view. I believe that the progression of the syndrome, combined with the therapy, has enabled me to get to the point that I no longer have outbursts on the Long Island Railroad

.Of course, that doesn’t mean I’m “cured” and I still follow the same routine on the train as much as possible. But I don’t think of it is as a dangerous place anymore. And to me, that feels like a victory.

(David Morris received his bachelor’s of arts/science in 2002  from Adelphi University. He is pursuing his goal of working in journalism or publishing with the help of YAI/NIPD’s Employment Initiatives Department.)

Autistic Pride Day 2010 submissions! Artwork Part 2 of 2

This is Judy Gardner, a woman in her fifties who does artwork.

Autistic Pride Day 2010 submissions! Artwork Part I of 2

Thank you for you contribution to my website with your artwork.

This is Jenn Ramirez

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