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A Poem Called “Theory”


by theamazinJ

Everything changes,
from theory to reality,
everything disbands with time,
everyone disconnects eventually.
the theory follows us in the stars
the theory says we re-connect over the speed of time,
the speed of light, the speed of sound,
and the speed of our hearts joining together
again and again.
Everything changes
when we know it is time to move on,
when we know it is time to shine,
when we know it is time to rise above the sky,
when we know it is time to see beyond the stars
to see beyond what we already know.
The theory says,
it is time,
and we disconnect
only to move further away
until the time approaches us to
meet halfway through.
The theory says,
once we move closer and closer
to the next approaching star,
the star moves further and further away,
because every star cannot touch or connect
to another unless we are ready and able
to explode and expand and create another universe,
in time that happens may be
every billions of years,
every time the stars reach each other,
in every universe, in every galaxy,
the stars move so quickly
because we move quickly
to lift our inner selves up
to the journey toward heaven.
Heaven is abstract,
in every way that it is,
heaven is imagined differently
for everyone,
heaven becomes whatever
we think it is and whatever it can be,
if our thoughts are lost,
then we become lost into a black hole,
when our thoughts are not,
we becoming a shooting star
speeding up ready for disconnecting
to eventually connecting to form
an explosion of stars attaching themselves
and creating a universe ready for life,
ready to create a solar system,
ready to create a world,
a new system to spread diversity of living
from the very small to the very large,
diversity can be ugly, gross, or even disgusting,
but diversity can also be the most beautiful, vibrant, and colorful beings
and living organisms,
in a world created by stars,
in a world created by thou,
in a world created by moving closer connecting
to a beautiful assortment of multifaceted moving particles
coming together to form something amazing.
The theory says,
it is a cycle.
A cycle that has a beginning, middle, and an end.
It does not have to be sad at the end,
because there will be a new beginning
almost immediately after,
it may take time,
but time is the only thing we have
in the space that creates a universe,
in the space that helps thou in the stars
create something new,
not every universe is the same,
like not every world will be made with the same style,
the intensity of creating a universe is immense and strong,
the power of the stars coming together to connect altogether,
only creates something even more beautiful.
We cannot be afraid,
we cannot let our fears get the better of us,
we cannot hate that everything can end,
because in the end,
the cycle of life
helps the stars grow,
helps us grow,
and helps a universe be born over and over and over again.
And, the only reason why it is born again and again
is because of thou and cause of our thoughts
existing in time and having faith
that we are all in this together.

A Poem Called “Looking Above the Mountain”

Looking Above the Mountain,

by theamazinJ

Somewhere over the mountain,
I climb and climb and climb,
I watch each view,
I see something amazing and beautiful,
I observe my surroundings,
watching the environments,
following the sun,
listening to the trees,
feeling the air,
becoming known to the world
with my observing eyes,
holding on for one more day after day,
believing I can see the world
without the world seeing me,
with just seeing everything
and learning about what I can do,
it takes time, precious time,
to do something I want,
to do something that matters,
to contribute what I know
in changing the world,
in changing society’s ways,
and fulfilling the need to
lift spirits higher,
to bring up about connection,
and disbound from the dishonest connections,
it takes effort to change society,
it takes effort to change our reactions,
it takes effort to see the world
without the world seeing us,
everyone strives to control
when we cannot even control everything,
sometimes we just have to let things go,
let our minds go
into the wandering air and sky,
eventually knowing we did something,
did something so well and so experienced,
that we contributed,
that we felt what we could feel,
emotionally or physically,
that we respected others
with the respect they give us,
emotionally it takes a mountain
to see it all,
it takes a mountain to spin down from,
it takes a mountain to wait until
the moment ends until we move on,
until we pass into the distant veil,
until we are hidden from view completely
and are able to be at peace
watching over the world
and what goes on,
trying to help as best as we can,
in the meantime,
we wait on top of the mountain
just experiencing everything
and learning as we observe,
and finally,
at the sight of our existence,
when that time comes,
we move on.

A Poem Called “No Regrets”

No Regrets,

by theamazinJ

Every experience we had,
every experience we have,
is neither bad nor worse,
every experience I had happened for a reason,
every experience I have I experience to grow,
no matter what anyone says or thinks
does not matter,
I grow from every experience everyday.
I grow because it helps me,
I grow because I am human,
and I grow to reach higher ground.
Some may not understand
especially since I am a disabled person,
since I have multiple disabilities
mainly invisible,
yet, everyone still knows I am human growing everyday.
Seeking support in different ways than I have,
ultimately making my decisions on my own,
because I have a mind of my own,
and every time I make a decision
it is always about how I feel at the time,
it’s always about what I need at the time,
and it’s always something I needed to grow from.
I have no regrets, and no body should,
even if we leave for a while
to do something we need to do for ourselves,
to do something that we feel we need to grow more,
to learn from to understand more about ourselves,
even if many others do not understand why,
even when others don’t understand what’s going on,
whether a disabled person or someone who is non-disabled
sets out on their own,
everyone needs their time for solace,
everyone needs to their time to listen to the inner voice,
everyone needs time sometimes to just do something,
because the time we have is all we’ve got,
the time we always had is all that we need to enhance ourselves.
As an Autistic disabled person who,
is disabled by default from a society who
does not understand the disability of autism,
and even invented and created the words.
Growth happens no matter what,
some may resist others’ growth,
some may say some disabled people cannot grow,
some may say having disability does not mean a person can grow,
some may say having disability is tragic sad thing,
some may say having disability means learning from those who are non-disabled,
some may not think of the implications of what they think
because it is overlooked,
instead therapies like ABA and social skills training
is generally mostly used rather than remotely used for specific ideals,
for specific impairments early on in life.
Sometimes we grow from each other,
but sometimes we need to grow by ourselves.
Others may be upset, crying, and angry,
about what the individual chose and what they wanted to
and how to grow from,
whatever the individual chose is self-determination and the social model,
regardless, and growing is an experience,
and there are no regrets from me,
and there should not be any regrets from anyone’s experiences
regardless of being autistic or not,
and no one should feel bad about any choice or experience they had.
In the end, it’s all about being self-aware,
it’s all about what we kinds of supports we need at the time,
and it’s all about having our intuition
to know ourselves,
and sometimes the support is just giving space,
understanding the boundary we set
to eventually come back a better person.
There is no regrets.

A Poem Called “The Choice”

(TRIGGER WARNING: The use of oppressive language may trigger some, be cautious before reading this poem)

The Choice,

by theamazinJ

The Choice is yours,
live one way or live another,
choose light or choose darkness,
choose anger or choose relieving that anger,
choose crying or choose sobbing until it stops with the tears that heal,
we can hurt our whole life or we can choose to diminish and maybe even stop the pain,
oppression is real and it hurts,
it hurts us all no matter who we are,
whether we are disabled or not,
any oppression hurts badly.
Oppression causes:
an attack on the person for their disabilities and any other different unique attributes,
then it causes a domino affect of pain and anger
eventually causing more heartaches and wounds.
The wounds bleed heavily and profusely,
as we get into a cycle of heavy bleeding of emotions and blood.
The cycle of oppressions is so strong and vengeful,
it causes hurt and pain,
though there is only one way
to stop the cycle of oppressions,
stop reacting and start attracting,
attract relationships you thought you would not have had,
attract everyone who walks into your life,
distract from the pain causing more pain
cause by distracting from the pain,
we become more productive,
we broaden our minds
opening up to other minds,
and living a universal neurodiverse community
all around the world.
The Neurodiverse community
that shapes our foundations of action,
that shapes our relationships,
that shapes our spirit,
and that shapes our communities across the world.
The choice is yours,
go with a direction of hope or go with a direction of never seeing the end.
Choose the direction down the rabbit hole into wonderland
or choose a direction into what will always be the same.
Wonderland can be wonderful,
but what we have already is wars against each other,
so choose wisely,
choose war and you get pain and anger and more pain,
choose wonderland and you attract relationships you never seen coming to you before.
The choice is yours,
the choice is forever,
the choice is not written in stone,
whatever you choose, choose wisely,
or learn to choose wiser in the future,
because in the end,
it is on you,
the choice determines your future,
the choice can change if circumstances change,
and choosing pain can change to choosing life,
because finally,
we choose how we feel at the moment,
we choose what we want,
and we choose a golden opportunity
to either seduce ourselves to the dark side,
and we attract emotions and bad feelings;
or abundantly attract beauty in everything,
and by attracting abundance,
we attract neurodiversity
to fulfill love, beauty, and kindness all around us.
Everything changes when attracting neurodiversity wonderland
and that makes all the difference
in a world that could forgive, teach, learn, build, and understand each other
for better than we were in the past,
leading to communications between ourselves and all around nature
toward acceptance of the supports and self-determination
everyone is born with.
Make that choice.

A Poem Called “365 New Days”

365 New Days,

by theamazinJ

Every year passes 365 days,
Another 365 days
every time a new year starts
depending on when you start
the year,
it could be now,
it could be then,
it could a month from now,
the new year starts
when you begin
a new 365 days to change,
when you exert 365 chances
to do something different,
a day when you decide
when you want to start fresh,
to focus on the positive
to lead a domino affect of change.
To really begin change,
to transition from feeling bad to feeling good,
to spread joy not sorrow,
to be a person not an inspiration,
to be the person you want to be not a martyr,
to think your own mind without copying anyone,
to build everyone up not make anyone seem crazy,
to not let anything bother you and letting everything go
from what anyone says to you,
regardless how close you are to them or far away,
the 365 day cycle begins when you want it to,
it begins when you say it will,
and moving forward a New Year’s Eve
is a stronger and more productive night
when you decide you want to grow,
that you have advanced to a higher level
to higher mindset, to a higher being,
where you sense the mind, and you embark your spirit,
everything changes when your thoughts change
when your body changes, when every interaction around you changes,
when situations change to your liking,
it is all a matter of what you want,
of what you do, and what you say,
you cannot change anyone else to change the outcomes,
in changing anything to happen,
if you want to change an outcome,
everything else has to change within your thoughts,
the idea is that a new year starts when you are ready
for the challenge, for the risks, and for the gains
that all will be done, that all will be accomplished.
I know it may be hard, difficult everyday,
difficult to wake up, not easy to block out criticism you don’t like,
but another 365 days starts everyday,
in every way, and when you want to change that way,
everyone says Ok, everyone says good day, and everyone says No, I won’t,
when we say we can, when we say it will happen, when we say Yes,
and when we say everything will be in our favor,
it does happen, it will happen, and it has happened to everyone
when we remember everyone loves us and no body hates us,
that everyone can put aside current leaders around the world
and start leading themselves.
No one can lead anyone, we can only lead each other to new chances,
to lead to new beginnings, to lead to better more supportive community,
to accept differences of all kinds of people,
and to experience a world where everyone diverges from each other
from the contrasted ways everyone is like,
whatever changes you seek, be grateful for your past that taught you lessons,
never regret anything you have said or done, and move forward growing and growing
to the higher spiritual level,
because in the end,
it is all about taking chances to build bridges connecting, not walls around each other
or around the world.
The world is great, everyone is great, and no one needs to be great again,
when we’ve always been a great species
making connections with the rest of the world,
helping to preserve the world to last longer
as we are crossing the bridge together
over fire and smoke,
some have fallen while many have risen.
Let’s cross together and rise up all at once.
Happy New Year.