First off, you must always doubt the people who don’t believe in you because every belief we say or do is trying hard to succeed. After having major surgery 3 months ago, I feel as if my stamina is not all there. I can’t make it through a whole day, but I try to anyway. Every one tells me I need to give it more time because it was very major.

A belief I sure have in my mind is to stop other people’s influences/beliefs that I can’t do it. I have already proven I can do it before my surgery. The surgery was a realization for me to tell me I have to slow down. Even though the surgery did slow my stamina.

A wise person once told me I can only make it once I distract myself from other people telling me how to do something or telling me I can’t do it.

I listen to those wise words very carefully in my head. I know what I can do, I know I can lift myself passed the issues of others who don’t want to see me succeed while I also see the people who cheer me on the sidelines as I try and believe. The ones who can’t see me succeeding are the people who need a life lesson in self-esteem and hidden agenda of belief.

Six months from now in September 2009, my life will be different. I will be fully functioning and able to spend each day making achievements. I know I will prove those wrong who doubt me. I always have.

A lullaby I just wrote: (sing this lullaby to whatever tune you’d like to)

Here I stand
Here in my heart
I see the giant leap of faith
guiding me thro’
fro fact to fiction
to livin’ my own dream.
Rockaby sweetheart
Rockaby sweetheart
I can have anything I want.

It is very small, but a good initiator for life.

posting again soon,

OUT, J