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A Poem Called “From Being You to Being Me”

(Trigger Warning: This poem (as well as the compositions I have done in the past) are intentionally left with certain mistakes to show disability. Be mindful when reading this post and any other posts.)

From Being You to Being Me,

by theamazinJ

The struggle to find identity in the world is a battle
fighting cause we’re different or odd,
cause the status quo wants us
the way many want us to be,
the way many bully get bullied,
the way too many make assumptions and presumptions
from the way we look, the way we move, the way we communicate, and the way we express ourselves
with everyone around us.
Too many people don’t understand each other
causing the pain and insecurity too many people face every day
in the communities we have always known since growing up.
the pain hurts, the pain allows us to be afraid, and allows us to be angry,
The anger gets expressed in different ways
in different reactions to power and control,
some try to express their anger by building it up until there is an episode,
an episode of fight, an episode of flight no matter how they flee,
fleeing by doing something extreme in their own way
or by allowing the community to do something extreme to them,
in a destructive way either within themselves or expressing it openly,
by including others in that anger or by excluding.
the pain can hurt,
the pain can hurt really really badly,
trying to develop into the person we really want to be,
and ultimately can’t when too many people all our life
bully us in too many ways
so that they can tokenize us to the way they want us,
and the agenda everyone wants to bully for the control.
The control to tokenize, the power to euthanize
either literally or abstractly,
the power to re-create or re-structure a person
because no one likes and appreciates the person,
while the victim either survives the pain to form their identity
or becoming the token at the expense of their dominant oppressors
being seen as an inspiration by their oppressors
while being a martyr within.
The fight to be yourself is a battle of identity,
a battle within yourself and with the many people who didn’t understand,
the many people who either tried to re-create you as them
or the many people leaving you alone without someone to listen,
ultimately creating a battle within yourself,
either escaping from your life internally or fleeing from the outside environment externally,
everyone processes things differently, everyone forms their identities in their own way,
and everyone is vulnerable to the surrounding misunderstanding world around them
when we feel different,
sometimes we find a friend who understands and other times we don’t,
so we have to decide how we want to live our life.
We can be everything we are not or everything we are born with,
we can express the desires everyone thinks we are or we can be who we are.
we can listen to everyone and build walls around humanity,
or we can listen to our hearts building walls around our oppressors and build bridges with humanity.
The choice is ours.
We have our families.
We have our personhood battling to speak our mind in the surrounding society.
We create our own justice,
we create our own future,
we choose our destiny,
we can be lost wishing for a future,
we can become the oppressor we always hated,
we can become ourselves getting over our past getting over everyone,
giving ourselves the freedoms we deserve to be ourselves,
expressing the boundaries everyone can understand
so everyone respects each other with manners everyone deserves to receive,
looking toward the future,
being who we are allowing ourselves to express who we are,
not being too afraid of our differences,
realizing we all experience the same struggles
no matter what,
no one can convince anyone to escape their life,
no can influence anyone that family values don’t matter,
no one can tell a person their differences need to be changed,
no one can influence anyone to be someone they are not,
everyone just needs to presume everyone can find their own direction
with their own differences relieving themselves from the struggles
everyone faces daily,
to finally building themselves in society
from being you to being the person they are,
escaping the many people who told them,
and allowing themselves to express their own identity in the end.

One last post for New Year’s 2013, It is Here and upon us now!!!!

2012 is behind me. There were Very good things that happened, and there were not so good things that happened. I am so proud of myself for have worked a job for the Autism Science Foundation’s Adult with ASD survey to improve services for Autistic adults. It was a tough job, but I worked hard and did it. I feel accomplished, I feel proud, and I am feel I am moving forward with my life.

2012 is behind me and the latter half of the year gave me much Joy with my job with Autism Science Foundation. I am ready for a 2013 feeling even better!!!

2013 will have it’s ups (and downs too), but if we focus on what we want to look forward to, we’ll be A-Okay. I will be the man I want to become, have the woman I want, and develop my self-empowerment with much gain to my advantage. I am a superstar spiritually because in a nutshell we all are superstars, we just have to believe in it ourselves. Being Humble is what makes us Hum-an. It’s what keeps us on our toes by staying grounded. It’s a feeling that makes us the best by not only helping ourselves, but by helping others also. Which by the way I am on the Board of Community Alliance for the Ethical Treatment of Youth (CAFETY) and feel proud to be volunteering my time to help them achieve their goals as well. Advocacy and activism is so important!!

Thank you 2012 for starting a future for me that will help give me the self-determination that my mother always instructed me in the past to become. I found so much gain in 2012, that the heartache of this past year fades away so quickly. Life often teaches us lessons. Those lessons instruct us over and over again and eventually testing us. If we fail the test, we keep on taking it again until we pass it. I have grown. I still have my life to live and more tests to take. However, I am guaranteed to pass it with the self-determination to finish with style, grace, and humility. Eventually I will be older, wiser, and teaching what I have learned in the past. When my time is eventually up, I will feel proud to give myself up. For now I am in my thirties still learning the lessons I need to learn to live and grow my spirit the way I want to be remembered.

Things happen for a reason, but I believe it’s all in good faith!

(By the way, I just saw the movie Silver Lining with Jennifer Lawrence and Bradley Cooper and it was a truly great love story filled with self-determination to beat the struggles in life. I highly recommend anyone who wants to, to see the movie, Silver Lining)


Why Connections Matter for the New Year and Fitting Best in Our Place in Society!

We are connected to each other because we are all Human. Connections matter so it’s time to begin the new year living the way Human beings are supposed to live. We need to find that connection at a distance that is comfortable for all of us. We can’t move too close or move too far away. We need the magnetic energy that connects us because these connections inspire us and cultivate our well being. It’s important for us, it lifts us up, it makes us grow, and it fills our spirits up. Some people may disagree with me about why connections matter, but they do. The Disability community is connecting with each other now more than ever to come together to fight for their rights. The Autistic community is a subset of the Disability community corresponding and fueling the Civil Rights we all have and cherish. Every one has the right to live their life with the quality, without stigma, and expand their culture. It’s not that Disability or Autistic is a culture, it truly is, but it’s the fact that we are becoming a culture from not being accepted and understood by the rest of the Human race.

We have been making strides. We have been enduring a lot of strength. We have been proposing our own society, a society purely Autistic away from the Neurotypical standards that is set in our minds from years before. That is why the people in the Autistic community have connected whether online or in person, we have formed bonds. We have formed alliances with other Disability communities as well to inform the rest of society that we are not dying, we are not wandering away, we are not cripples or disabled, we are different and we need society to understand this. Different can mean so many things. Jim Sinclair, a leader in the Autistic community who leads Autreat started this Civil Rights movement, but Temple Grandin began the concept that Autistic people can be important too. The Autistic Self-Advocacy Network and Greater Regional Asperger Syndrome (Autistic Spectrum) Partnership were formed thereafter to help continue Jim Sinclair’s mission from the Autism Network International or ANI who started Autreat. Autreat still thrives since the 1990’s and will always thrive. It’s an important aspect of Autistic culture. Then, later Adaptations was created at the JCC in Manhattan to also help empower Autistic people and the rest of the Disability community. Wherever we go, whoever we see, whatever we do, we are becoming connected to another Human being. This is a good thing, but some people say they just like to live in solitude with nature or with animals. Whose to know if that is wrong because it’s not. Animals need to connection too! They have a spiritual sense too that some people thrive at connecting with. These connections we form whether with other people or animals form through our consciousness.

From a book I am reading on Psychic Empowerment, “Consciousness is very pervasive in every dimension in the universe.” Some people think that our consciousness is our mind thinking, but it is more than that. Even when we are unconscious, we are conscious. I read about Psychic Empowerment because we all connect for a reason and lift ourselves up for a reason each day we wake up from sleeping.

We have different levels to our consciousness. Sometimes we don’t realize why we are connecting to a place, a person, an animal we love, or an object we enjoy, but a different level of our consciousness connects us to that. Deep down inside we all have a higher self that commits to us and deepens our whole existence. Some people get caught up in their physical waking consciousness with their emotions causing them pain because they feel they can’t connect to another person, feeling angry. There is no reason any one should feel this way. There are connections with others for everyone. Think about this for the New Year to continue on your wonderful journey to live a better life. It’s that simple. To feel empowered you must believe your success is your destiny and believe you have greater worth in this world than what you originally believed. A simple success is just feeling connected to some part of you or some person or some animal. Always remember our belief is our perception and our perception creates reality.

It’s no wonder “We are who we AUT to be” because when we know what we want, feel connected, and feel positive about what we can do for the greater good of society, we feel empowered! There is no reason why society has to bring down Autistic people like myself, the rest of the Disability community, or any one for that matter to create a false belief that there is a normal. Because there isn’t one. Normal only exists from our physical consciousness society tries to pretend that there is. Diversity exists because we are all in this together to help each other and grow as a growing human race. Believe in yourself, be positive, and always know with faith anything is possible!!! Psychic empowerment is really self-empowerment and knowing we can be a positive contributing member of society with relaying our intuition, always feeling strong.

Hope every one enjoys the excitement of New Year’s Eve and Every one has a Happy New Year in 2013!!! Remember that only your experience in life can change the way you want it to, to feel empowered, positive, and successful.