It is a strange thing to most people, but this is the way I am. I hope my family and friends read this knowing I am already like this. Whenever I am told something I need to do or anything, I just can’t process the information. It is part of my make up.
My feeling inside is it must get many people frustrated with me because they do not know how to tell me to do something. Well, it is simple, just get a pen and paper and write it down neatly for me. It only takes a few extra minutes.
I need to learn things the proper way not because everyone else learns it that way. I love the way I learn, I learn also by example. Mostly the way an animal learns. Autistic people are like Animals just like the book “Animals in Translation ” by Temple Grandin. I feel she is right. I feel I am exactly this way and I always have been. My parents would get frustrated with me because I would not listen to them, but I can’t really hear them at all because all I hear is noise. I don’t really hear a word they say no matter how loud they yell. Sometimes my mom will put her mouth on my ear and start yelling, but that is so much sensory integration for me, I go crazy just trying to stop my ears from exploding. It is very hard to deal with this problem my mother tends to do. She does this with my brothers, but they are Neurotypical so they can handle this.
I also do not like touch and will not let anybody kiss me or hug me or touch me in general. I will live in solitude. Solitude is great and only certain people in the world can really do this. I have platonic friends and my family, but the rest of my life is solitude.
I enjoy solitude fully and find certain things too stressful. I love my work and I love all the people I work with including the doctor I work with who I have a strong bond with and am very close to. It is amazing how much I love my Ultrasound scanning. It is fantastic.
Anyway, I hope to post later on. I am going to see Madagascar 2 with my Grandmother tonight because it is the best movie out in the theaters now.
OUT, J