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A Poem Called “Theory”


by theamazinJ

Everything changes,
from theory to reality,
everything disbands with time,
everyone disconnects eventually.
the theory follows us in the stars
the theory says we re-connect over the speed of time,
the speed of light, the speed of sound,
and the speed of our hearts joining together
again and again.
Everything changes
when we know it is time to move on,
when we know it is time to shine,
when we know it is time to rise above the sky,
when we know it is time to see beyond the stars
to see beyond what we already know.
The theory says,
it is time,
and we disconnect
only to move further away
until the time approaches us to
meet halfway through.
The theory says,
once we move closer and closer
to the next approaching star,
the star moves further and further away,
because every star cannot touch or connect
to another unless we are ready and able
to explode and expand and create another universe,
in time that happens may be
every billions of years,
every time the stars reach each other,
in every universe, in every galaxy,
the stars move so quickly
because we move quickly
to lift our inner selves up
to the journey toward heaven.
Heaven is abstract,
in every way that it is,
heaven is imagined differently
for everyone,
heaven becomes whatever
we think it is and whatever it can be,
if our thoughts are lost,
then we become lost into a black hole,
when our thoughts are not,
we becoming a shooting star
speeding up ready for disconnecting
to eventually connecting to form
an explosion of stars attaching themselves
and creating a universe ready for life,
ready to create a solar system,
ready to create a world,
a new system to spread diversity of living
from the very small to the very large,
diversity can be ugly, gross, or even disgusting,
but diversity can also be the most beautiful, vibrant, and colorful beings
and living organisms,
in a world created by stars,
in a world created by thou,
in a world created by moving closer connecting
to a beautiful assortment of multifaceted moving particles
coming together to form something amazing.
The theory says,
it is a cycle.
A cycle that has a beginning, middle, and an end.
It does not have to be sad at the end,
because there will be a new beginning
almost immediately after,
it may take time,
but time is the only thing we have
in the space that creates a universe,
in the space that helps thou in the stars
create something new,
not every universe is the same,
like not every world will be made with the same style,
the intensity of creating a universe is immense and strong,
the power of the stars coming together to connect altogether,
only creates something even more beautiful.
We cannot be afraid,
we cannot let our fears get the better of us,
we cannot hate that everything can end,
because in the end,
the cycle of life
helps the stars grow,
helps us grow,
and helps a universe be born over and over and over again.
And, the only reason why it is born again and again
is because of thou and cause of our thoughts
existing in time and having faith
that we are all in this together.

Struggling to Communicate with People my Whole Life

Communication is key!!

However, I have been struggling to communicate with people my whole life from speech difficulties, being Autistic (not being a mainstream general person), and living my life as a person who cannot understand the jargon most people including my family tries to convey to me. This is when self-advocacy becomes important especially when I need my space too, understanding other people’s words spoken to me, and knowing when to communicate with or without my mouth.

Communication is key!!

But, my communication style has always been a struggle for others to understand. I do have echolalia, I do have multi-sensory issues, I do stim, I do think visually, and I love listening to people through music and I do love to dance like my papa Dave did!

Communication is key!!

Struggling to communicate is improper with people who struggle because everyone needs to interact and speak in a standard way through vocalizing thoughts through the mouth from mainstream society.

What can we do? What are we able to communicate to others when there is a disconnect especially with families and their Autistic children and siblings?

Connection is good, however when there is too much disconnect between families and their Autistic children or siblings, there needs to be a meeting point of each other to meet half way. By meeting halfway, we need to communicate by seeing each other at the right distance without seeing too far or too close. This is a problem for all families of Disabled people and Disabled people themselves.

Communication is key and the social model is much better when the medical model has caused so much pain and stigma!!

When can communication become the right when all of us who need to connect with each other? When can we understand and accept each other regardless???

Language is individualized for each person. Self-determination is important for everyone while the importance of connection continues through learning from each other, learning on our own, and not being dependent on the system being medical model or stigmatizations society give us.

This is all the things to think about as when we need acceptance and understanding during the month of April for Autism Acceptance Month.

Remember communication is a two way street of understanding each other without getting too stressed, too angry, too overreaction, or too hurt from pain causing other’s too much pain too. I have felt pain in my past, but now it’s time to move forward and be happy as I remember the very need to maintain myself to continue to be positive!

Love my family, love all my friends, love all my support network, and love the world.

Thank you all!!!

Communication is KEY!!!

Doing well in graduate school!!!!