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my dogs Abby and Chloe

I will be putting pictures of Abby and Chloe, my dogs on the web soon.

They are maltese dogs, white long coats of hair. So, be prepared to see what these dogs look like.

Abby is 16 and chloe is 6.  Chloe is a very smart and manipulative dog that tries to get what she wants when she wants it. Abby is very old geriatric dog that is living her last days.

out, J

My Jewish Roots and other things…

As a jew, I feel that the IDF, Israel Defense Forces is the best army in the world.  When I went to Israel in the summers of 1996 and 1997, I was totally filled up with life.   I felt like for the first time in my life like I was comfortable and at home.  Yet I was never born in Israel, and I was never living there permanently, yet someday I wish to be there again.

Eretz Yisrael, the land of Israel, the land that is the promised land to the people. There is an argument there to whom the land belongs; us jews, or the others.  Yet, I believe it belongs to everyone to share in the blessings from the eternal one.

I just hope that in the future, don’t know how far into the future, though, that Israel will be at peace.

But, the problem is the more people in the world, the more conflict and we as a human race have every right to  reproduce and produce more people.  Yet, there will always be tradeoffs in life. You do positive, you get also negative, yin and yang.

Its just like that in Medicine as well especially when it comes to doing echocardiography or any other type of ultrasound that other people do.

You decrease element of physics, you increase another element of physics.  Ha, do I know it or what, but if I start giving a physics lecture right now most of you won’t understand what the heck I am talking about.

The more sacrifice you make which is negative to get where you want to go, the more positive things will happen. Sometimes you have to sacrifice a little bit of time, money, and other stuff to improve your career and get where you want to go.

So, back to my Jewish Roots, I hope that the one up there is proud of me, cause if he isn’t I sure have to make that one up there proud.

Shalom,

J

Anti-Valentine’s Day is over till next year

 So what did all you do on Anti V DAY people? see poll to the side to answer that question.

Love is one of things that has hurt me in the past and I will not allow myself to love again.   Call me ridiculus, but I don’t think I want that.  There is so much pain and suffering with it that I don’t think that I want to deal with it.

ANTI-VALENTINE’S DAY!

Here its Anti-Valentine’s Day has come, Not Valentine’s day, ANTI-Valentine’s day.

So, bring out the songs, bring out the turbons, bring out the misery, because its Anti-Valentine’s Day. Not the Love, THE MISERY!

listen to these songs, I don’t want to cry by Mariah Carey, Irreplaceable by Beyonce, Go your own way by Fleetwood Mac, I will Survive by gloria gaynor,
water runs dry by boyz II men.

Anti Valentine’s day is great to get my feelings out.

out, J

poem

Opportunity Knocks
By Jason Ross
 
I walk down the street,
Seeing  the people I meet,
Harvesting the very aspect of my mind,
The people greet oneanother,
Talk with oneanother, and feel for oneanother.
Or at least some of them.
Some also fight with oneanother.
 
Streets are filled with people I said,
But also filled a great ease of life.
Or so it seems at this moment in time.
There are so many beginnings and
So many endings.  What begins, must also end.
The endings can be sad or really really happy.
The beginnings can start out sad and end happy.
 
People in this world know one thing for sure,
The egos that need to feel important.
I once knew a man about my age it seems,
That all he thought about was the ego inside of him.
He felt an emptiness, something that he needed filled up.
His ego was as big as a whale and would make others like me
Feel upset and worthless.
 
One day I woke up and thought to myself,
What makes him do this making me feel this way,
And the answer came in a flash, ‘Its because I forgot
What makes me so great.� I am who I am.
I have passion, I have wonders, I have the inner workings
Of my soul.  Yet, the need to be the best I can be
Has to happen right now whether ready or not.
 
If not, I will be stuck for a long time to come,
If yes, I will be the best I can be.
If yes, I can forget what everyone else does.
Roses can be red and beautiful but also ugly and
Deteriorationg at the same time.
To see the Roses red and beauitful is to see that
Life has so much to offer with opportunity knocking at your door.

poem

Being the Asperger that I am
By Jason Ross

The night is dreary,
The stars are out,
everybody is coming out.
My feelings are hurt
Even more than anybody can say.

The people coming out are
Coming from the usual places,
A good paying job, and a good night out,
Or better yet, coming from a test.
Some of these things or all of these things,
Turn the wheels of time setting up for an almighty test.

I tell you once, I tell you twice,
I need the owning of my life.
Everywhere I go, and anyone I see,
Tells me that I am not free and
Frequently let’s me down.

My feelings are precious and so are yours,
Yet I feel as if mine are more…
Some people call that selfish,
Some people call that absurd, yet who cares.
Life is generally the same for me.

I know sometimes I am absurd.
Why do I feel that way about people?
Liking is a liking, hating is a hating,
You can not change the liking
And certainly can’t change the hating.

These words can be cruel,
These words can be mean,
These words can have my feelings hurt.
I am who I am, but who the hell am I.
I am just an ordinary person like you and I.

The extraordinary is the almighty,
The one up way up there in the sky.
There are some people I seen and some people I know
Who claim that they are extraordinary as well.
Who knows what is in their heads that they feel that way,
Yet, I just know who I am, An aspie trying his best.



My life is precious and my feelings are set,
My emotions are real; I get sad, Iget mad, I get glad,
Just like anybody else that I met or set in this world.
So take me as I am, take me for who that is.
I may be gullible, I may be forgetful, but I never forget.

I love the people that even love me,
Even with those that hate me.
My feelings are real, oh yes they are,
I am who I am, and you can’t take that away.
So, accept me for that and never discredit me.

These feelings I have are real,
These feelings I have are sealed,
These messages I give are my feelings to you,
Whether you like it or not,
Or hate it so much.

I am who I am that’s all that I am.
I got to get going, I got to bail,
I have many things in the mail,
I am not going anywhere to far,
Just going to mail my mail.

I hope its been real,
I hope its been insightful,
I hope that may be I showed you
My feelings for people.
That is who I am.

You have your family, You have your friends,
You have the very things
that make it in this life.
Family comes first because they were the first,
Friends are the people that you met after that.

People leave your life every once in awhile, but it doesn’t
Ruin your day. People come, People go,
Just pass life on till the faithful day,
That faithful day where every body comes together.
Coming together and celebrating together in the kingdom of g-d.

Of mice and men…

What is the difference between a mouse and a man?  A man stands on two feet and a mouse scurrys on the floor with four feet and and no legs plus a mouse only squeeks and does what he wants when he wants.  A man can do anything he pleases on his own two feet and talk without sounding like a squeeking noisy person.  A man takes care of his needs by doing courageous acts, is empathetic, sympathetic, apologetic only when its necessary, an intellect, an artist, an writer, and can basically take responsiblity for his actions without squeeking.

A man also has the ability to reason through his choices whether good or bad.

J

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows

 I can’t wait for this book to come out and see how the harry potter series finally ends.  I can only envision in my mind from what i read in the first 6 books what the series could end like.

Anybody please comment on how you think HP will end…

J

Pan’s Labyrinth

Pan’s Labyrinth was a fantastic movie.  It took place in the World War II era in Spain.  A little girl and her mother are boarding at a fort house somewhere in the middle of spain with her stepfather or the captain of the army.  The little girl is in to fantasy and discovers a whole new fantasy world outside of the reality of the war.  the girl sees a fairy that guides her into the secret fantasy world throughout the movie which leads her into a maze.  That’s when she discovers that she is a princess and her dad is the king of the fantasy underworld.   She has to unravel three tasks in order to pass her test to become the princess of her fate.  The tasks are dangerous and she sees many exotic creatures and things in order to see her father the king again.  Its an adventure that truly amazes me that she can finally envision seeing her father who had died years before.  I highly recommend people to see this movie the cinematography was excellent and the quality of the acting was great.

Next up my next movie to see, Children of Men directed by Alfonso Cuaron.

spanish lesson

Quien Pedo?

No me gusta cuando gente pedo.

Pepe le puh stinks real bad, oh yeah he’s a french skunk.

mofeta apestoso — smelly skunk

tiene cuidado—– be careful

comerciante ——- merchant

subdida ————- climb

eminem’s song has a lot of meaning from the movie 8 mile…

curse words were bleeped out…

Anyway, read the words over and over again and especially the last line…

Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wantedone moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
Theres vomit on his sweater already, moms spaghetti
Hes nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words wont come out
Hes chokin, how everybodys jokin now
The clocks run out, times up over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes rabbit, he choked
Hes so mad, but he wont give up that
Is he? no
He wont have it , he knows his whole back citys ropes
It dont matter, hes dope
He knows that, but hes broke
Hes so stacked that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, thats when its
Back to the lab again yo
This whole rap bleep
He better go capture this moment and hope it dont pass him

Hook:

You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

The souls escaping, through this hole that its gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is borin, but superstardoms close to post mortar
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows us all over these bleep is all on him
Coast to coast shows, hes know as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
Hes grown farther from home, hes no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cuz here goes the cold water
His bosses dont want him no mo, hes cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds
I suppose its old potna, but the beat goes on
Da da dum da dum da da

Hook

No more games, ima change what you call rage
Tear this bleepin’ roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playin in the beginnin, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin and stepwritin the next cypher
Best believe somebodys payin the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I cant get by with my 9 to 5
And I cant provide the right type of life for my family
Cuz man, these goddam food stamps dont buy diapers
And its no movie, theres no mekhi phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard and its getting even harder
Tryin to feed and water my seed, plus
See dishonor caught up bein a father and a prima donna
Baby mama dramas screamin on and
Too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another jam or not
Has gotten me to the point, Im like a snail
Ive got to formulate a plot fore I end up in jail or shot
Success is my only (bleepin) option, failures not
Mom, I love you, but this trail has got to go
I cannot grow old in salems lot
So here I go is my shot.
Feet fail me not cuz maybe the only opportunity that I got

Hook

You can do anything you set your mind to, man

a store where I live

There is a store where I live called Mr. Oz that sells lottery tickets, magazines, newspapers, and school supplies for the students in public school. Now this is supposed to be a decent place with clean material.  But, yet I experienced something from them very disturbing.   I went to the store to buy a lottery ticket and the Post one day. And the kind gentlemen at the store was at the cashier and says to me. Will that be all, sir? I said yes.  Then, went to hand him the money I owed him and before he takes my money he waits for the store to empty out.  Then he whispers, Psssssssst, do you want to buy something special off of me?  I say ‘What? I am here to buy just these 2 things, NO! Then he says No really I think you might enjoy this. And I say “No.” then he says wait here and I will get it and then you will look and see if you want it. He comes back 2 minutes later and in his hands is a porno dvd.  I’m like, Look sir, I don’t know what your problem is but if I wanted to buy a porno dvd I know where to go,that looks sketchy sir. I am not doing that. He says are you sure? alright, think about it. and I gave the money and left.

What a crock, this type of store is. Why do they sell dirty porno dvds of naked women when they are supposed to be clean and not sell that kind of stuff. I mean there young kids in that store. That drives me crazy.

Anyway, like I said there are places better to buy that kind of stuff you or I want to.

Don’t go to Mr. Oz.

Out, J

excerpt from my story

Read and tell me what you think of this fictional piece…

<The day was ordinary like no other day, a couple was standing in the hospital as they were waiting to be seen by the doctor. The woman of the couple was sitting in a wheelchair with her stomach as big as a whale ready to burst. The man of the couple was yelling at the nurses in the hospital emergency room for his woman to be seen by a doctor. Then, that’s when it all began with the birth of a little baby girl from an unmarried Barcelonan couple. The baby was very thin, fragile, and had beautiful blue eyes as most babies do, but she had a glow that could have been the sun hitting as the sun was very bright that day shining through the glass window of the hospital room her mother gave birth in. The unmarried parents felt overjoyed and felt this was something the lord made, it did not last forever. 2 days later after 2 days of something the lord made ended because the mother and father had a huge fight and the father left the mother and the baby. Leaving her to be a illegitamate child. The mother is different and the baby not realizing anything wrong until the baby is hungry, thirsty,and needs her diaper changed. The mother feels all alone since the father left and becomes very depressed so the mother takes her baby to an orphanage in Madrid where she knows that the baby will get the needs she deserves. The mother says “goodbye my sweetheart Avrila.” And so Avrila enters the next phase of her life in a very short period of time at the orphanage in Madrid.

It didn’t take much time more when a couple from America came to Spain in the hopes of adopting a child from an orphanage. They didn’t realize that in about 8 months from now they were going to have a child of their own, so they embarked on their journey to Spain. As soon as they found the orphanage in Madrid that they communicated with back in America, they saw the babies there and as soon as they caught their eyes on Avrila, they felt something special with her by the glow in her eyes and what a beautiful baby she was so quiet and still.>

poem

Untitled, by jason s. ross

Somewhere out there, Somewhere free,
I see myself out of misery,
I know the misery stays with you
as long as you are there with it.
There is a place I know and
there is a time I know
that will drift me far far away
from misery.

Sometimes I get down, Sometimes I smile,
Sometimes I cry really hard,
Sometimes I even get angry …
Sometimes I see myself in the mirror
and sometimes I just look away.
But, Sometimes just sometimes,
I must see the brighter side of the mirror.

The mirror reflects to what the world
sees in me.
Even if I don’t like what I see,
A taperecorder that tapes my voice talking,
tapes me doing the things I am saying,
even though I am ashamed of my voice
which carries me through
this grand ole’ life.

I must accept who I am,
and what I look like, even what I even sound like,
since that is who I am and what I will be till
I am old and gray grandfather sitting on my bed.
Life is true, Life is pleasant,
Life can have positives with negatives,
It just so happens that this captures what

I need to deal with.

Hola mis amigos y amigas

Since I am practicing my spanish all over again, this is a good way for my spanish readers to comment on spanish phrases and words for me to learn and practice for my patients. Feel free to comment!

Que Pasa?  vs. (hebrew) Ma Shlomcha?

Me llamo Jason, Tengo veintisiete anos.  Mira a mi ojos cuando ven mi.

Soy ser quien soy ser y que es todo que soy ser.

does anyone know what the name ‘Abelardo’ means?

Buenas noches! Hace mucho frio en Nueva York!

Hasta luego,

J

(sorry I don’t have the accent marks)