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Poem

Solitude

by the owner of this site

I found a rock so clear as crystal
lying on the ground near the frothy crystal lake.
I sat down and saw my loving nature.
I thought about the woman I loved years before
as now I am only in my seniorhood,
remedying through my past.

The past seems useless since
nothing can be changed.
Yet, may be just may be the past
will be guide to the future as
I shut my eyes and go to sleep
I see the past in my dreams.
It goes like this,
the past is the past, you can’t change that
the woman I loved who is now wherever she is now,
turns to me in my dreams and says, “Boy, what happened?”
I turn with a sigh not answering her back, and instead
that is when I go never look back.

May be its for the better,
may be its for the truth,
may be just may be its for the best.
Jolly sings the song with glee,
Cry baby sings the song about sadness and feelings.
But, the truth is for me and her who know its for the best.

We had our moments,
we had our joyful occasions,
about the times that we shared are feelings and thoughts,
the times that we laughed and got a long,
but the times that we cried we held
each other so tight until that faithful day when it was all gone.

She found someone new and I felt all alone.
I never really found that special someone
ever ever again until about one day ten years
down the road I was walking down the street.
Standing was a woman on the street,
leaping to her feet.

She reminded me of the times with my love
of all loves even though it was a different
fish in the sea. she had such great smile,
such great hair, and even the finest way of talking
a man can ask for in a woman.
Oh, what a woman!

We wound up together, marrying with children,
and raised those children to have grandchildren.
then one day, when she died, I sat in my room and
started to cry. I wondered where those years had come
and gone where I sang my life and played in the yard.
Here I am in the yard once more all alone with no one to care for.

When is solitude the moment to be by yourself,
When is there a moment not to be with others
including the one you find and love.
When I was five year old child playing in the yard,
my granny once said “never be alone.”

Never be alone, but I have alone time a lot in my past,
I never understood. Was that lonliness or solitude?
If I was happy then its solitude.
If I was sad then its lonliness.
but if I was a little bit of both in different periods, then
was that solitude or was that lonliness?

I can’t ask my granny now, because I am
what age she was at that time in her life
which was years ago, but I do know this,
when I was lonely I was sad, and when I was
happy I was in solitude, but then when I was
really happy is when I was with the loves of my life.

We may have loves that we meet
and they come in and out of our lives,
whether through changes in life or changes to heaven,
but we are who we are meeting and greeting
accepting that and moving on.
Change is an invaluable lesson we learn in life…

hope you enjoy,

out, J

work in progress… say it ain’t so…

This is a series show on DMC about Aspergians the land of people with Asperger Syndrome. I walk through the valleys to meet and greet the different lands of people other than Aspergia to find out what other people are like. Aspergia greets is a show that will continually be on DMC’s website. Sit back, relax and read the episodes as they come. Some will see action and adventure, some just comedy, and some just a moment of learning other cultures and sometimes just sometimes we will go back to certain episodes…

Aspergia Greets…

Aspergia greets the doors of latin episode I.

My land of Aspergia is busy with their lives and so I will do the thing I want to do as I decide to check out the lands of others in this universe. I enter on my ship and float away to another land. when I see something that looks interesting. I hear two people wondering about my ship. I jump off the ship and see a door. I begin to go near the door and open it up.

Here I am opening the doors of latin as that is what the sign says on the door.

J: Ah, this seems really nice and cozy here.

Then, two men walk up to me, one with a mustache and one short fat dude.

F and K: What brings you to this neck of the woods? I see you are lost or something. Let’s show you around if you don’t mind.

J: Well, where am I?

F: By all means, you have just entered the door of latin.

K: What would you like to see first?

J: Show me your land and the people around.

So, they walk down from the door of latin, and see lot’s of people in their homes on and around a beach. they enter into a small house and we meet a few people.

A: Hola.

F: Hey, he don’t speak the language.

A: Hello. do you want a cup of tea and food? I am starving also and want to show you how I cook. did the guys tell you that I am a great cook.

J: By all means, yes.

K: What?

A: Are you two hungry as well? I am making some scrumptous food for y’all.

F and K together: Sure.

G walks in: What’s going on in here? I smell food. Is this a feast? I didn’t realize it was a holiday.

A: NO, its just company.

F and K together: Yeah, somebody walked through the door and we want to show him the around.

G: be nice to this man and please don’t do what happened to the last one that walked through.

F and K: Oh, no, he is from the land of Aspergia.

G: oh, where is aspergia? never heard of it.

J: Its just a small land area just 1,000 miles west from here. I left there to go on a journey to meet and greet other lands. This is my first stop.

G: HAVE FUN!

G walks out.

A: The food is ready. Come and get it.

The table is filled with lot’s of food. Many different types just melts in your mouth not in your hands like fried plantains and other cooked fruits, rice, chicken, pork, black beans, and for dessert a huge portion of Flan.

A, F, K, J, and a few other people join them on a nice dinner out.

Here is the dinner scene conversation.

A: so, what is Aspergia like?

J: Well, the land is very beautiful, not like this is not bea–

K: Hahem, hahahaha, what a lame duck?

A: Ah, excuse me but our guest is talking. Go on guest.

J: So, not like this is not beautiful, but our land is filled with much water surrounding our land, and we have many tall buildings that house are technologies and government officials.

A: What kind of technologies do you have?

J: Well, first off the technologies are similiar to the iphone only better, everything is computerized, and our health facilities quite different from medical facilities in this area.

A: what do you mean?

J: Well—-

K and F: Hahahahahaha, this is a joke. How can medical facilities be different from us?

J: Well, if you let me speak, not to many aspergians get sick until very old age, so we don’t need many doctors. We experience the world differently.

K and F: OMG, hahahahhahaha…

A: Stop it, may be we can learn from this. go on guest.

J: well, do preventative medicine at birth in order to prevent illness.

K and F and A: how is that different from us you have not seen our medical facilities?

J: true, but I have seen many pictures and read stories from a far about all the nations and that is why I am here today. I am curious what makes us different.

A: What makes us different is that we are all unique finite beings that reproduce and create other unique finite beings. We are creatures of habit.

J: hmmmmm, so you believe that there is no g-d.

A: no, I didn’t say that. We are finite beings who believe in the lord jesus christ.

J: wait, isn’t there many different types of people that believe in different religions.

A: oh no, right, that is what us three believe in, but yes there are many other different religions.

J: isn’t there only one faith though? why are people so inclined to see the faith differently and not so much believe in the same…

G jumps in…

G: that is because people interpret faith differently, but essentially have the same rules written down differently.

J: so, it was nice have dinner with everyone but it seems that my tour guides are getting tired so I guess I should be going.

K and F both sleeping and suddenly wake up from a snore: What? Oh yeah, lot’s to see and many places to go.

A: Well guest, this is it, hope you had a great meal and oops, my husband just got back from work, you should meet him.

husband: oh, we have guests.

A: yes, these 2 brought us guests and now we are going to say goodbye because the guest has to go back on his journey to other lands.

F, K, and J leave and decide to walk up a hill that winds up being a trap door.

Luckily though the trap door was where they were headed. The door led to a comedy club that K and F always do their show at.

J is in the middle of the show.

Annoucer: Here they are the Superstars of comedy with a guest from A-S-P-E-R-G-I-A?

K: oh yes, that is our guest, and he is here to observe and learn our culture.

F: Yes this is our grand ole finale show with the guest of honor.

F and K: He just had our food with our finest chef and now he is wondering what is next.

J: What is next?

K and F: our magic act.

Everyone except J: 1, 2, 3 …

And J winds up in the studio with the magic cape.

F: What would you do with that cape, sir?

J: I will turn you into a dragon.

K: ah, and what about me?

J: I will turn you into a pig, oink oink.

F goes and breathes fire and K goes oink oink.

Aspergia GREETS becomes the new title of the show says the annoucer…

then F and K turn back to themselves.

J: So, how does it feel?

F and K: HUH, what do you mean?

J: How does it feel to be different?

F and K: UM, it feels different, weird, I guess. why did you do that?

J: I wanted to show you both, my new friends, what its like to be different because Aspergia is a different kind of a place than you ever seen before and at Aspergia we look the same but feel different then you. So, how did it feel?

F: It felt like a hot tamale.

K: I felt like you just insulted me.

J: huh, I just waved the cape and then that appeared because that is what I was thinking.

K: well, I guess its alright because its over. oink.

J: uh, oh.

K: just kidding I just was playing with your head. the pig is gone from me.

J: Actually, (and the magic cape goes over them again), poof… you’re both dragons now.

Two Fire breathing dragons on stage blowing steam…

And here comes there wings flying out to fly away as J rides one.

So, as episode I ends, Aspergia greets meets a new set of people in episode II, and the tour guides will continue throughout episode II as they meet JS and AM.

Hope you enjoyed the episode…

out, J

PS Comment if you’d like to know what names you want my characters to have…

sing it with me and Ernie…

go to these/this website: SecondLife.com

I wish I could have a computer that could work with Secondlife.com because it sounds like a great website. Comment if you agree or if you like it too or if you use yourself.

Also, Andrew, I will go see grandma boy sometime soon and post a entry on it.

anyway, what is better facebook vs. myspace vs. friendster?

 Also, go to www.adaptationsonline.org and check it  out the website is not officially up now, but it will be in July….

out, J

Let’s go Mets!

Finally Tommy Glavine the Glavinator has come back to form. Thank goodness!   He almost pitched a shutout. I still worried about the mets and their shakey season.  Especially the starting pitching.  May be now that Rickey Henderson is working with Jose Jose Reyes, things will turn up the heat again. May be that started last night versus the Atheletics.   PIAZZA came back to Shea in an A’s Uniform last night and for the rest of the weekend. Is he on the DL though? If he is, this could be his last season. 

Jose Reyes is the most exciting dynamic player in the game.  Some say that Pedro won’t be the same old self before as he is now, and that he will not have velocity so he needs to use different pitches to get outs. Its not like he had Tommy John Surgery, he had Rotator Cuff Surgery.  That is tough, but he is a tough cookie and he could put his mind to anything, right Pedro. Go the distance Pedro….

Anyway, gotta get going…

out, J

Lot’s of MENUS!

 quiz for ya…There are so many cultural and neural diversities in this world at the time.   Menus’s of Diversity.  What is your cup of tea, or food for thought.  To start out, there are Asperger and Neurotypical.   From there in each category, there are many more and because of that there are so many different terminology for each set of cultural group that I get confused and alerted to the fact that the politically correct way of saying a certain culture, so I won’t mention any culture at this time.  Only Asperger and Neurotypical. 

Anyway, Asperger and Neurotypical is a nice to talk about since in any culture can have either Asperger or Neurotypical. Though certain cultures are more prone to one or the other. 

There is a song out there by Bette Midler that relates well to this, and that being said is From a Distance.  Because the eternal one is really seeing us from a distance and observing how all of us are being in this Planet Earth.

so there is a good youtube video that shows this but first let’s take a look at her words:

From a distance the world looks blue and green,
and the snow-capped mountains white.
From a distance the ocean meets the stream,
and the eagle takes to flight.

From a distance, there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
It’s the voice of hope, it’s the voice of peace,
it’s the voice of every man.

From a distance we all have enough,
and no one is in need.
And there are no guns, no bombs, and no disease,
no hungry mouths to feed.

From a distance we are instruments
marching in a common band.
Playing songs of hope, playing songs of peace.
They’re the songs of every man.
God is watching us. God is watching us.
God is watching us from a distance.

From a distance you look like my friend,
even though we are at war.
From a distance I just cannot comprehend
what all this fighting is for.

From a distance there is harmony,
and it echoes through the land.
And it’s the hope of hopes, it’s the love of loves,
it’s the heart of every man.

It’s the hope of hopes, it’s the love of loves.
This is the song of every man.
And God is watching us, God is watching us,
God is watching us from a distance.
Oh, God is watching us, God is watching.
God is watching us from a distance

which is better solitude or being with people?

I guess it depends on the person.  Some people think that people in solitude are really gay or something, but that is not true.   Sometimes in life people have to be alone and some people actually enjoy it.  Then there is a flip side and that is lonliness.  That is when people are alone because they have no choice and are ostricized for many different reasons.

How many of you have been lonely in your life? or, How many have of you people been with people your whole life? or How many of you people enjoy solitude with any one around them?

Henry David Thoreau loved being alone, it was his greatest feat in life, A Transcendentalist. Hey EG, have you been by Walden Lake in Massechuesetts. Would you EG, decide to be a Transcendentalist? LOL.

Or how about SG, would you move in with the NOMADS in Egypt, LOL, Just Kidding.

How about how many of you would be an extremist in social world.  I think its better to be a moderation of all three in this world since too much is bad, and too little is like being like g-d in which none of us are g-d.

Any newbies reading this please don’t hesitate to comment.

Hey things are the way they are because people interact whether its interacting with lower animals like abby and chloe, or other human beings.

TALK, REACH FOR THE STARS, and FORGET WHAT THIS WORLD IS ABOUT ——–> ADAPT

out, J

who goes the distance? is it drazin.org?

Its very likely that people go the distance. There are a few songs that describe people going the distance. Like, Michael Bolton’s Go the distance, Cake’s The distance, and probably others too. These songs are supposed to be inspirational. Songs that make people go the distance are like a way for people to get up of their butts and do something for themselves.

read the words to michael bolton’s go the distance:
I have often dreamed, of a far off place
Where a hero’s welcome, would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying, this is where I’m meant to be
I’ll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong
I know ev’ry mile, will be worth my while
When I go the distance, I’ll be right where I belong
Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I’ll see it through
And I won’t look back, I can go the distance
And I’ll stay on track, no, I won’t accept defeat
It’s an uphill slope, but I won’t lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero’s strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its’ harms
I don’t care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms
I will search the world, I will face it’s harms
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in your arms

What do you think of that?

I think that these lyrics show me and others anyone who puts their mind to something can do whatever they want to do.

Just take a look at drazin.org or take a look at me trying my hardest to make it as an echocardiographer/vascular tech.

I hope that I make it big…

I wish things bigger for me and hopefully become shining more than any other star out there.

soon to be a post later on,

out, J

who matters?

who matters anyway? How do we know when we matter in this world?

posting later on about the answer…

out, J

The mets struggles…

What is going on with the NEW YORK METS?

They were doing fantastic and now they have been slumping for the month of JUNE.

What is OMAR going to do now?

post comments for your opinions… to be posted for tomorrow…

my birthday, out, J

to the story I told you about, here is the whole song…

You Are My Lady – Freddie Jackson

There's something that I want to say
But words sometimes get in the way
I just want to show
My feelings for you
There's nothing that I'd rather do
Than spend ev'ry moment with you
I guess you should know
I love you so

(Chorus 1:)
You are my lady
You're ev'rything I need and more
You are my lady
You're all I'm living for

There's no way that I can resist
Your precious kiss
Girl, you've got me
So hypnotized
Just say that you'll stay with me (you'll stay)
'Cause our love was meant to be
I promise to love you
More each day

(Chorus 2:)
You are my lady (my love)
You're ev'rything I need and more (oh, oh, oh)
You are my lady
You're all I'm living for

(Repeat chorus 2)

(Bridge:)
I love your shine
(Shine, shine, shine)
Let's make it last
Until the end of time

(Repeat chorus 2 until fade)

My 28th birthday…

Today is my birthday everyone and I just like to tell you that one year older just means exactly that, 1 year older. Hopefully during the 28+ year of my life things turn for the better for me rather than the opposite.  Before the age of 28 things were were not better, things were turning from bad to eh to so-so and hopefully this year turns to great for me.

My life up until this point has been a roller coaster and I guess that is the way life is going to be always.   But, I assume that some of the bads happened because I caused my own problems without realizing it until I was told that it was.

Today is also a work day for me which is the first time that happened on my birthday. So, I hope all goes well on the workfront.

Here is a poem I just wrote:

Birthday loves happen only once in a lifetime…

I once knew a man who had a birthday.

He said it was the day of happiness.

I asked him “why?”

He said “I am 50 years old and I finally have what everyone else has.”

“And what is that I may ask?” I said

He said “Well, I’ll tell you in this song I wrote.”

“NO, tell me now.” I said

“Well, Okay, I met the woman of my dreams today that  I never thought would happen.”

I say “Oh yeah, what did she look like?”

He said “Well, she …”

(here is the poem/song) Play what ever tune is on your mind:

Her name was Velda, with those beautiful green eyes and that dark skin.

She lights up my life, she brings me joy and happiness, she gives me insight in to my life,

oh, Velda, Oh Velda…

I love my Velda
(now I am thinking as I am listening to this person, wow he must be in love)

Its a beautiful day cause I am with my Oh Velda, Velda the most beautiful …

(then he starts to sing a familar tune)

Something tHat I want to say, but sometimes words get in the way,  I just want to show my true love for you.  nothing that I want to do, then to spend every moment with you… You are my lady, You’re everything I  need to know… You’re all I am living for…

(I try to remember all the words but its hard)

I’m you’re precious gift.

You are my lady!

Let’s make it last, ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, until the end of time… (music wow this guys in love)

You are my lady, you’re everything I need the most.  You are my lady.

sing it with this guy now and play this song wherever you are.

Then I found out the song is by Freddie Jackson called You are my lady.

It must be interesting for a guy to fall in love with a woman that they feel so encased with love that the guy sings You are my lady by Freddie Jackson.

anyway, I don’t know if that will happen to me someday, but you never know just like what happened to this guy I knew.

speak of the truth, now, I really need to post something else,

out, J

Harry Potter

Check this out, posting from me to come, and comments from anyone else

sing it with me…

whatever you can do, I can do better, whatever you do, I can do too…

for my family and my friends that love and care about me including everyone…

Smile tho’ your heart is aching,
Smile even tho’ it’s breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by,

If you smile
thro’ your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You’ll see the sun come shin-ing thro’ for you

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev-’ry trace of sadness,
Al -’tho a tear may be ever so near,

That’s the time,
You must keep on trying,
Smile, what’s the use of crying,
You’ll find that life is still worth-while,

If you just smile,