In a lot of ways it is important to share stories to help out other people who may be have the similar struggles. A lot of people can benefit from the ways in which they can help themselves or others. We are all human beings anyway with similar problems. A person can distinguish who they are as a person by pinching themselves in the arm and feeling pain. It is just an example of one of the feelings we have. It does not mean we should always feel pain because a lot of the times we can feel happy. It is just up to us to be joyous with what we do in our life.
Some people don’t realize this, but you must feel joy in your heart by first giving yourself a kiss on the back of your hand. It shows you love who you are. It may be hard for some people to do this, in the end, it makes life a lot easier. Some people may have a hard time knowing how they can love themselves because they may feel they have nothing to give. They may have sensory problems, social difficulties, and/or lack of motivation in society to do the necessary functions to be able to live independently.
Living independently should be the goal of any one in society. It is very important as a first step to living independently and to be a contributing member of society to love yourself before you can love other people. Ultimately, you will finally live your life the way you were meant to be in society.
A simple goal for yourself should be discovering a door opening every day for you.
posting again soon,
OUT, J
Suddenly the tunnel ends sliding Light Year Man and Regina to a series of Tombstones. In front of the cemetery reads a sign called ‘Tree of Life Cemetery, A United Cemetery of Romania’. Light Year Man takes Regina through the rusted old gates. They walk through the cemetery as they pass tombstones which have been around for 500 years or longer. They pass a tombstone by the name of Schlomo of The Hills of Transylvania lived from 54 to 130 A.D. (C.E.). It was a small tombstone which was basically had an old stone with a drawing carved in the stone who looked like Light Year Man himself. Light Year Man glances at the tombstone for a while and pays his respect with a stone.
Light Year begins telling Regina who is watching in fear, “His name was Schlomo of the Hills of Translyvania. He and I were very good friends on Earth when I was alive here.” then he says “I promised him I would come back to his stone, so here I am.”
Regina asks “Where is he? Why isn’t he with you?”
Light Year Man says “He is. He always following me every where. It’s who you call Flash Forward.”
Regina says “Wow! I can’t believe this. How did he die on Earth? How did he go to your planet?”
Light Year Man says “Well to answer the question you want me to answer, I must tell you very slowly in 2 parts.” and then he slowly answers “He died in battle. We were fighting demons on Earth. Not in the sense of what you think demons are, but Demons in the sense of human beings who became very scared and angry. They hated the world, they hated everything, they destroyed everything they could find.”
Regina is now beginning to realize what the mission could possibly be. Light Year Man begins crying as they walk over a few tombstones down to where his mother lays. Her name was Moricia of the hills of Guanafetchy, mother of Guasefiny and Jacob. Regina is about to ask which name he was, and Light Year man starts crying saying, “Jacob.”
Regina asks “Where is your tombstone?”
Light Year Man says “The hated had burned me in home filled with straw. My tombstone will not be there except for a statue of my favorite animal, the phoenix, over there.” He points his finger to phoenix statue which fell over on the ground where it should be standing tall. Light Year Man felt sad for the very first time since Regina saw him. Otherwise he always has a smile on his face.
There is a man on Earth who is starting the war once again from all his fear and anger. He never had good life and hates the world about it. He is very similar to the man who I was fighting thousands of years back. Before the two of them leave the cemetery to head back to Flash Forward and start the journey toward finishing off the mission, the Light Year Man pushes Regina down a pit which he follows down with her. The pit becomes a tunnel of light. Light Year Man is flying or swimming through the tunnel with glee and Regina is scared at first.
At the end of the tunnel, Regina and Light Year Man suddenly appear as light over forest where Flash Forward is waiting for them.
Flash Forward stands up and runs up to his friend saying “So..”
Light Year Man says “I think she understands.”
Flash Forward whispers “Does she understand if she helps us, she has to come back with us?”
Light Year Man “No, Not yet.”
Flash Forward “OK, you’re in charge.”
Light Year Man, Regina, and Flash Forward follow down a path to the train station. They each buy a ticket one way to a land of historical figures by the coast. They wait for the train with just a few things in their hands and leave the only area Regina has ever known. Regina begins to start crying in her seat next to Light Year Man.
Light Year Man tells Regina very slowly “Stop crying Regina and toughen yourself up…the Life you created is something your father wanted, but he is too sick right now. You will be doing your service with us. Once it is all done, you will see…”
(as this part ends, the glorious story unravels. Be sure to look forward to the rest of the story parts coming soon.)
more to come,
OUT, J
My life is at the sole of gratitude towards many people in the world. I need people to feel the same way in their life. We need to all feel gratitude for every one everywhere. My angels are sensed all around me. Nothing can go wrong unless you think it. Autism is the ultimate gift this world will ever see and for all you doubters out there, you will find out soon enough. Don’t take your life for granted or anyone else for that matter.
I have finally gotten something where I can scan in my artwork so that I can show the world my art. Art is a great experience to bring glory to the world. It is an expression of how we feel without any words, just drawing. Improv acting is also the best way to know how you can help yourself in the best possible way.
Take a look at yourself in the mirror today and say to yourself, “I am I. I am a person who can and will achieve.” Take your gift and bring it to glory by doing what you were intended for. When you have decided to harvest the gift, your rewards reap with glory.
I have not been able to sleep well for a whole week, but may be the weekend will help me sleep better.
Substitution plays a big part in our lives when we are not harvesting our gift to bring to glory to ourself and the rest of the world.
LISTEN to yourself crying. Listen to yourself what you are wanting to do and capable of doing.
Have a wonderful day my readers!
OUT, J
Some people decide to lift themselves up during these joyful times, but get angry when not every one is happy for them. All of a sudden people look at what others have and say “I want what he has,” but is wanting what someone has enough to satisfy yourself. It is a an area showing some people need to feel satisfied with their own talents and appreciate their gifts.
Every one is here for a reason because no body can judge each other and no body can feel the need to have someone else’s gift. Every body works hard for their achievements to get far in this world. No body should think they are better than the next and no body should feel they want something someone else has unless it is what is meant for them.
My life can feel very intense at times or just feel very relaxed. It depends on the situation. Sometimes we all just have to take time out of our busy lives to reflect on the continued fight for our own existence. Sometimes that fight is worth fighting for if it is something we are meant to do and sometimes it is not if we are living someone else’s dream. In the end, we have a choice; spend time carving our gift or spend time carving someone else’s due to jealousy.
It takes the whole nine yards to think about what we want our life to be like.
posting soon enough,
OUT, J
Here is an tale from me to you:
An old man once told people he was something special. Every one didn’t believe him. He would walk to the inner portions of town and say to people “I can heal you and help you in every way if only you pay me 10 pieces of gold a day.” People called him the Crazy Man in the town. They felt he was just chewing everyone’s ear off and not actually healing anyone. One day a little boy comes up to him to tell the Crazy Man so to speak that he is angry he can not fly like a bird. The Crazy Man tells the little boy “I am a healer and although I can not make any human being fly like a bird, I can heal you from your anger to fly like a bird. You would be the talk of the town and every one would want to see the boy who can feel connected to god. The townspeople would want you to connect yourself with god whenever people were in trouble or feeling down. To feel connected with god you would transfer yourself to a room in your home say one word ‘Life’ and walk out to the townspeople where the sun would become brighter that day with a little bit of wind.” then the healer says “I may seem crazy to a lot of people, but once you walk away from me, you will feel connected to god.” he concludes with “and I shall leave here forever since my work will be done. Are you ready?”
The little boy says to the Crazy Man “How does this happen?”
the Healer says “just walk away to see.”
So the little boy begins to take his first step from the healer as the little boy notices his arms turning to wings. He starts flying like a bird just like he wanted to. He soars through the sky flying so high and flying down through the town where people become amazed at watching a little boy fly. Once the little boy was finished flying he lands in the middle of the town hall meeting area. Every one gathers around him and he yells out to the townspeople, “HEY!”
The townspeople all yell out to the little boy in unison “God!” The little boy says “No, I am not God, but I can fly.” One townspeople says “How is it you can fly?” The little boys tells every one “I can fly because I believe…” At the very instant the healer/crazy man looks from the mountain to the town, smiles, and begins walking away in to the far distance. The little boy begins seeing sparkles in the sky and a sun shining so bright with a little bit of wind. The little boy says “Mommy, Daddy, everyone, there is god!” As everyone looks his direction and sees the crazy man/healer walking away from the town.
There are 2 morals of the story: 1) believe in yourself and other people will believe in you. 2) The healer believed who he was and every one thought he was crazy until he met the little boy who made every one believe the crazy old man was not crazy at all. Some people who believe who they are may seem crazy to some people, but there is always a believer to show what their true potential really is.
Now for every one of my readers, Have a Great day!
posting again soon,
OUT, J
Light Year Man found a jar opened in front of his feet not knowing where it had come from. He picks up the jar and starts to turn the wooden stopper on the jar. Flash Forward is standing next to him when Light Year Man opens the jar noticing a dirty powder in the jar with an object seen on the bottom of the jar. Light Year Man puts his hand in the jar, but notices it is too tight for his hand. Instead he turns the jar upside down dumping the powder out. The object falls to the ground when the two of them see it as a key.
Light Year Man turns to Flash Forward while Regina is looking on, staring at the key for a few minutes. Light Year Man felt this key can be a very important use. He didn’t say anything and put the key in his upper chest pocket from the clothing Regina gave him.
It is time to start on the quest vision which Light Year Man has been sent here on this planet for. Regina has taken her father’s place as the prime Earth guardian to help Light Year Man. Flash Forward is the sidekick coming a long for the ride.
They set out their journey by walking to the livestock in the woods where Regina’s father has discovered and brought up a few unicorns he has found. The livestock in the woods takes about two days to walk to in a cave under the waterfalls of a National Park. Light Year Man is wondering how his creatures are doing after all these years. In the meantime, Light Year Man, Flash Forward, and Regina packed up and headed out.
A long the way to the cave, Flash Forward walks past Light Year Man and Regina who are talking about her father back when she was only 5 years old. He was telling stories of how her father and Light Year Man me and her father knew how to say his real name.
Light Year Man continues telling Regina, “See Regina, your father is not the person you thought he was all these years. He was a unique individual who even remembered being up in the stars in heaven.” he further states “I met him because I accidentally slipped on a crack on my planet and fell through a wormhole. When I met your father, he thought I was a fallen star from space. As soon as he saw me, he yelled out, ‘Maria, my little Regina, come to see this, I need help,’ but no one heard him. He then approached me, stared in to my eyes, and said ‘boo’. I didn’t know what that meant, but I said my name which for some reason he completely knew how to say.”
Regina asks “How do you pronounce your name?”
Light Year Man answers “I am afraid you don’t have the powers to say my name unless you hear it in space.”
Regina says “but my dad never told me about his encounters with you and he seemed ordinary.”
Light Year Man says “Your dad is not ordinary. Soon he will die and be a part of our mission on Earth. He will help me and Earth should live a different way of life after our mission is complete. You are just a temporary figure to help me until your father dies here to help me.”
Regina begins cry saying “No, my dad can’t die, I need him. How dare you say that to me?”
Light Year Man says “I am sorry, but is for the greater good of the universe for him to go and help me when he is ready to die here.”
Regina runs off to the nearest oak tree to cry. Light Year Man stands still with his arms bent to his side and the clothing Regina gave him falling off as his original space suit fills up with pride on his body.
Light Year Man slowly and steadily says to Regina “My dearest Regina, I speak to you in your language because your dad taught me languages here. The place you are living in is falling a part. No body here can do anything to help it. I am here to help all of you on Earth. Stop crying and move forward towards me. Lean in to my body and wrap your arms around me as I show you something you have never seen before…”
Regina listens to Light Year Man and wraps her arms around him. She begins to see a light inside of her shining so bright. Flash Forward turns around in the distance looks at them and smiles. Light Year Man begins to fade with her as they disappear. Flash Forward sits on the path to the creatures in the cave waiting for their return.
(Where did Regina and Light Year Man go? What are they doing? The story continues soon so wait and see what happens next.)
posting soon enough,
OUT, J
Sometimes our lives take a necessary hit in the forehead to see what we need to do. Finding and planning a strategy does not always help, but its golden to remember every thing you need to do from the beginning being in the beyond. A path to having value in this world is very hard for me to do, but probably even harder for many other people including other Autistics.
The first thing a person needs to tell themselves is “I do have value in this world” and keep on saying it till they are blue in the face. At first you may cry, at second you may want to crawl in to a hole, but in the end you will feel good. Every one’s value for this world is different no matter who the person is. Every one can not do everything. We can try to do everything, but we are defeating the purpose of where our skills lie. If we do, do everything, then we can lose touch of who we are as a person if we are not meant to do certain things. We need to perform our skill at our very best because some day the rewards will follow.
A skill develops when we are a child and we should practice this skill to be the best. Instead a lot people when they are a child decide to focus on other more social activities. Some people say human beings are a social society. Emotions and social activities are a big part of Neurotypical society. It is why Autistics feel the need to be social as well when we don’t have the social parts like Neurotypicals do. Loneliness is a feeling of a person who needs other people around them, but some people say they rarely feel lonely. A lot of Autistic individuals feel that since they are struggling so much trying to get through a one on one conversation with a person, they rather be alone in solitude. I question their statements of wanting to be solely in solitude with nature because there are times we can’t possibly be alone. Yes, I enjoy my solitude, but I also sometimes need to be with people too to share a conversation. Being in the medical field, I have been having many conversations because I observed from the beginning the need patients and healthcare workers had in common, the need for dialogue. Many patients need to have the sense of comfort in conversation so I forced myself to start talking to people like patients and other healthcare workers which did not come naturally to me.
Speaking of skills and development my life has entered in to a new realm. I am beginning to recognize my talent when I draw. I sit back in the distance on a grassy area and I draw. I did draw many things when I was a toddler and a child, but I did not make anything of it. I have not shown any of my drawings on this site yet, but as soon as I figure it out, I will. Someone once told me recently drawing is a great hobby where I can earn extra, but my work is in Ultrasound. I have a highly skilled talent already where people consider me the best, but I tell them “I am one of the best.” I guess I am one special soul because I am a crystal aura (from a book I read and discovered about myself).
Time goes by
to the errors we live in,
by the shadows of our
creative minds
in a era of a changing
world.
An angel only comes in a time when you need one, but some people always have one from the beginning for guidance. When you feel you are down, just sit down in a quiet area and pray silently to yourself until you notice a world of change given to you. Sometimes we just have to let go of things in order to move forward.
(Light Year Man and Flash Forward coming again this weekend in the novel series on this site, Gregarious Revolution)
Have a great day,
OUT, J
(more of the narrative coming soon by me)
OUT, J
Rain keeps our soil fertile, and our water flowing in our pipes…
Time to start the day and make it a good one!
more posts coming soon,
OUT, J
Imagine yourself in a situation when anyone for that matter is bullying you. You have a few choices. You can let the person continue to bully you by being weak, or you can stand up for your rights to the person who is bullying you by telling the person how inappropriate and hurtful they are being. By standing up, you will earn more respect and finally be treated fairly. The other choice is to flight or leave when the situation became so grim because you held inside all your fears. It is better to let go of your fears by telling the person how you feel right away in a assertive manner by not yelling or throwing fists or cursing. We must face our situation head on as soon as the problem arises. If the person or bully still does not understand how you feel, you must find a way to leave.
A lot of times bullies don’t feel good about themselves and feel hurt inside since they have fears of their own they need to face. Sometimes the fears they may have can be similar to the fears you may have when being victimized by them. The bullies project their fear(s) by using the fear as anger toward other people creating hate, pain, and suffering toward innocent people. There are many bullies in this world and practically all of them take on similar themes to what makes them bully an innocent person. A lot of times it is their way of standing up to their bully in their life (a chain reaction) by bullying others or sometimes it is a deeper fear inside. Deep down inside a bully is crying, but not showing it on the outside. Emotions can sit deep inside us building a tension which eventually explodes in anger. Remember to speak first and not let the emotion settle.
Today I want every one to say to themselves “It’s okay to cry. I am human.” Whatever fear you may have, just cry for a few minutes or however long you want to about the fear, then find a way to stand up assertively to the fear. If it is a fear of a particular animal, go up to the animal to find a connection. Life is curious with love. We can’t be afraid of love and we certainly need to be curious about our life.
One thing we all need to do is, live a life where we are doing something which makes us happy.
(Acting is a good way to figure out how to handle yourself in real life. Time for a day to act when I go to drama therapy class at the JCC Manhattan. It helps me since 2008 and I have seen myself grow better.)
posting soon enough,
OUT, J
I think I will go out on more hikes and find places in the woods to meditate. Meditation is my ultimate source of connection to nature. Liberate yourself and find your inner self which has been hiding for years in the most of y’all.
A flower exemplifies yourself and we must feel connections to all animals. Besides all animals are connected to us more than we all know. Next time you see a wasp or a hornet, let make the honey we all enjoy. Like I always say every thing has its purpose. Chloe the Maltese dog even has her purpose as all of you may know: she’s Cute, Hungry, Licks on Every one! The purpose of Animals as a whole (including Human beings) are to enjoy life and spread and facilitate our mission here on this planet.
If you are afraid of the unknown animal on Earth or in the Sea or soaring in the sky, then go beyond your fears to touch the unknown. You may never know what kind of gift you may receive…LOVE!
NATURE——–> Nice Awesome Transient Universal Revolutionary Experience!
Now I get back to my experience with nature and feel my way of being with NATURE!
posting later on,
OUT, J
I can not believe how many ignorant people there are in the world who can not comprehend how an Autistic can speak with proper guidance. I have spoken to many people in my adult life who feel I can not be Autistic/on the Spectrum because I speak. The gain people get from early intervention even when Autism was not really known in the past, makes a big difference later in the person’s life. Early intervention helps those people with Autism to be able to function in society and become a contributing member of society. Just look at myself, Temple Grandin, Ari Ne’eman, or some famous people in past and present history who have done well. Sometimes it is more of a tenacious feeling the person may have inside which keeps them going through the roughness of letting their feelings out.
The last thing any one would want is to be placed in an institution or a group home because society feels they are not worth anything until they are cured from their disability. It takes perseverance, guts, and pushing through to show the abilities you (a person with a disability like Autism) may have. Every one has value in this world and succeeds in different ways. Focus on your strengths and the world opens up to you.
Essentially, the guidance a person gets by receiving early intervention skills training as a toddler only helps later in life when the child grows in to adulthood since they will have a strong balanced ego.
As April’s Autism Month ended, May has begun as the beginning to end the ignorance of some Neurotypicals toward Autistic individuals and other disabilities. Are Neurotypicals ready to learn?
Good Luck to every one who has been appointed to the IACC recently. Research can be done, but understanding what people can do is more important. People can do things with proper guidance. The Adults at Adaptations in New York City is just one of the few Neurodiverse groups of people supporting each other to help make friends, self-advocate, and adapt to society. It is important for people to have a strong enough ego to be able to feel good about themselves.
I end with a famous quote about how every one is different:
Nobody can be exactly like me. Sometimes even I have trouble doing it.
Tallulah Bankhead (1903 – 1968)
OUT, J
To end Autism Neurodiversity Month, I saw Temple Grandin this past Sunday in Park Slope, Brooklyn. I had got to talk to her a little bit, but she seemed overwhelmed. I feel I am very similar to Temple in many ways. The Autism Spectrum is different, unique, yet similar.
Speaking of Temple Grandin, she is officially in Time magazine’s Most Influential people in the world of 2010. I’d have to say she is an inspiration to me.
I asked her a question this past Sunday about teaching other people with Autism Spectrum to do Ultrasound Technology like what I am doing. She first asked me if I work in a hospital. I told her “No, I work in a doctor’s office.” She started talking about how it is very important for people on the Autism Spectrum to get work experience in their specified special interest. It builds our egos and our egos are not too good to begin with when we are humiliated or feeling down due to Neurotypicals being ignorant.
I told her on Sunday how her mom and my mother are very similar especially how Temple was raised by her mom and how I was raised by mother. Every time I hear how her mother got her speech therapy at about the age of 2, I think about how my mother did the same for me.
One last thing Temple Grandin spoke about how there are too many Autistic/Aspie people who are developing a special interest in Autism. She feels how Autistic/Aspie people should be developing their own special interest outside of learning about Autism. I believe Autism is already in us and we should let Neurotypicals study us and be able to learn from how we are.
My artwork is getting really interesting and I love my interest in Ultrasonography in medicine. Someday I would like to teach those Autistic/Aspie individuals who would want to learn Ultrasound in the school I will create.
Speaking of my interest: Here is an interesting video clip:
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The circulation is great, and my art is even great too. Coming soon is my artwork as I can figure out how to put it up. Blood is important to be pumped in all of us. Keep up your strength and stay healthy!
I leave you with a good song to listen to today:
posting later on,
NEURODIVERSITY spreads everywhere!
OUT, J
Discover something about yourself today that you didn’t realize you had before. May be it was a passion you had when you were only 5 years old, and if you are 5 years old, hold that passion for the rest of your life. Stick to your gut feelings and you will be valued with success. Every one is meant to do something for this world, just look inside yourself.
An angel once will come up to you secretively out of nowhere to tell you “You live on this planet, you die on this planet, then you move forward to greater happiness.” Something out of nowhere will take you to your place where you will never go back to the fears you had before. You fear the unknown, you never live.
Thomas Jefferson once said
Never fear the want of business. A man who qualifies himself well for his calling, never fails of employment.
Now let’s take a look at what Einstein once said
Every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving.
The trouble is every day you wake up, you have to think to yourself, ‘What can do for myself today?’
Connecting, liberating, shocking the world with your passion in life!
My artwork coming soon…
OUT, J
Finding out the truth of who we are and what we are meant to do is an enlightening experience. We become someone who can teach others how to find their own enlightenment. We must try to find our enlightenment. I know some people are born leaders while others learn from the born leaders, but we all lead from one main source. Although some people just lead mainly from that main source. We must try separating ourselves from the rest of the world which can be difficult for most people to do.
There is a song from the 1980′s which we should all think about to believe in ourselves from the Michael J. Fox film, “The Secret of My Success” called “Don’t Ask The Reasons Why” by Restless Heart. It gives every one the beginning of the enlightenment we all need to hear first. As many of you may not remember, it starts out like this:
Alone, on your own, no way to see the end, but here is where the road begins…, You’ve got to believe it’s true, Just listen to what your heart keeps saying. And don’t ask the reasons why…
So come along for the ride or make your own sparkling journey…
Wednesday is a big day for me. I have to get my Cardiac MRI/MRA to look at my Aortic Aneurysm. I find it easier when I am relaxed. Thankfully I feel better in closed in spaces. A lot of times I wonder if Temple Grandin’s squeeze machine would work for me too.
posting soon enough,
OUT, J