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Its a feeling of desire

A feeling of desire in anything we dream of. It is something all of us need to feel at some point during the day. Some thing which sparks our interest. Something which touches our deep soul within. Something no body can take away from any of us. I have mine, What about yours?

Think about this desire and go with the wind.

posting later on,

OUT, J

The Background of Love

There are many times in my life and other people’s lives when we feel we love somebody who does not love us back the same way as we want them to.  Unrequited love happens frequently.  I can tell you a story of a recent unrequited love, but it will not serve the purpose of this posting.  The purpose of this posting is to try and figure why and how it happens.  I find this happens more often with people on the Autism Spectrum like myself.  I have had several times in my life where I have fallen in love with a woman, and the other person did not love me back the same way.  The most recent unrequited loving relationship only happened a couple of years ago.

Let’s think of ways to avoid the heartbreak of unrequited love if there is an avoidance of it.  How close to do you get to a person?  and Does it really matter what culture the person is from who you fall in love with?

I don’t think we can control how close we get to a person.  For me, when I meet a woman I like who does not seem to have any boyfriend or husband, I want to get closer to the person to see how much I really like this person.  The closest I have ever gone with a woman I really enjoyed the company of,  she wound up being older than me.  How old is too old to be with somebody?

I would say the difference should be up to 5 to 8 years older or younger than me.  It seems to be very hard to find a woman who is exactly my age and very compatible.   Now if I am 29 years old and I meet somebody 5 to 10 years older which means 36 or 38 years old, is this a good thing or bad thing.  I am Jewish and when I am somewhere to meet a woman I for example could meet a woman who is Spanish or Indian or of a different culture from what I am who seems to be very compatible with me.  After a long conversation,  everything seems to fade away except the individual I see who I really like a lot and eventually would want to get to know more.

Individualism is very important.  We must always look at the individual first before making any determinations based on anything.  I know I had fallen in love with women of different cultures and older ages, but it may just show that I can love.   Though, I don’t feel I really want to love anybody again.  A loving relationship in a romance sort of way brings heartaches and joys at the same time.  There is too much stress involved.  It is something I must think through whether or not I should try again.

I am open to meeting an individual woman who seems very compatible to me.  I respect my brother who looks at a woman as an individual bef0re determining anything.  Love comes in different packages and it does not have to come in a package with the same culture and background.

I think I seemed not to get to the point of how not to get involved with unrequited love, but I think there is no answer to this question.  It happens sometimes…

Take it easy,

here is an image I found which signifies a person standing in the midst of darkness with a single stream of light in front of this person. Could this be a door opening?

OUT, J

From Dusk till Dawn

Lifting the dark
Lifting the spirit
Lifting the ever existing
charm of what others
can or will not do.
Its spirit is filled with
coming of darkness
leading brightness.
Its herd is drawing near
and far.
It is the ever rainbow
in the distance
with the butterflies and hummingbirds
in the distance ready
to celebrate.

This is far greater than anybody can share to handle among any one.  I’d like to say the body is attached to the mind which is attached the spirit which is attached to the infinite universe.  A mind so big it is as big as the universe. A learning capacity so big we can just about learn anything we want to.

Think about yourself and think about your well being.   I know you can learn what passion lies within you.

I just want this world to finally become a world of shear joy and patience.

posting later on,

OUT, J

A Changing Vision

My feeling adjusts the light
I see a vision
and it flickers in my room.
I don’t know what to expect.
My vision is bright
and I can only see the light.
I listen to the footsteps
coming toward me,
it is like a vision like
no other.
The shadow in the footsteps
becomes brighter and brighter.
It is the figure coming toward me,
then it turns and turns in to a
different room.
I hear laughter, I heard music,
I hear celebration.
Though it is not for me.
Wait, I then hear the footsteps
coming toward me now
and I hear people clapping for joy,
spreading their wings bringing
me to the face of the Earth.
My vision gets lost as I am
in a dark alley somewhere in
the nighttime.
I don’t know what had happened.
I see drool from my face smooching in
my hand now.  I think
I was dreaming.
Now I sense a person about
to approach me.  This person
seems to have a knife.
My guard goes up to block this
person with a knife.
As I sense the feel of a knife
knocking me down,
I awake in my bed.
It was a dream.
I awake and run outside
where many people
people I knew and people I know
recently standing by me
clapping for shear joy.
I watch and notice a bright light
waiting for me and watch the light
and I am gone…
I don’t see anything
I just see a kingdom
with a throne
and a bright white light
too hard to see myself.
I can’t speak,
I can’t even move.
All I can do is listen.
The light speaks in words
written in the clouds.
I see the clouds and I fall back
to the people who were clapping
for shear joy for me.
I brought my message back
by making sure everybody
listens to every one.
A way for our life to sing with
joy and clapp our hands
is a way for anybody to listen
to any one who has a vision
for something better.

I hope you enjoyed my poem…

OUT, J

Hope everyone is having a Happy Holiday whatever they are celebrating

I don’t know all the holidays people are celebrating now. The only ones I know of are Chanukah, Christmas, and Kwanza.

I feel we should all celebrate Happiness. No body should just celebrate a separate holiday. We should all celebrate our precious gift called, our Life.

take it easy,

OUT, J

Lives people have that we often tend to forget

I think there are many life skills we tend to forget when we are often living our lives. One of the most important aspects of our lives is we all have our own life of responsibilities to take care of.   The most important responsibilities are our health in regards to physical, mental, and spiritual health.  The other is our responsibilities of our chores which help  our lives completely.  Most people tend to ignore this aspect in their lives. People have different interests where some are more verbal than others.   People focus on things other than what they need to do.  I guess it is why people don’t want to focus on their overall health.

Every aspect of our health is important to us.  The physical health keeps our hygiene clean, our bodies healthy, and listening to our bodies.  The mental health helps us control the behaviors some of us seem to do which make us stand out from the typical.  Our spiritual health keeps us in control with our beliefs in whatever we believe is out there.  I am Jewish and there are different beliefs others believe in.   I know there is definitely a spiritual world beyond this world, but I do not know which is right, which is wrong.  Religion is a man-made belief system.  In order to get in touch with our spirit, we have to all spend at least 3o minutes with meditation. If none of you don’t know how to meditate, it is easy.

Meditation is our way of getting back on our task after a simple or complex distraction.  We just sit down comfortably in whatever position you want to focus in on, and just concentrate on breathing.  Once we concentrate on our breathing, we just focus on a very simple lively moment in our lives or a simple thing which we focus on to get through to our task once again. I know most people have trouble focusing on their task especially when they feel money is too important matter.  Money does not matter at all. The most important matter in this world is the love we have and give to to ourselves.  Once we love ourselves,  we can love other people.

A strong feeling for justice is taking our skill of reaching for our love and thinking about how to mark it in our lives. This mark in our lives will give the greatest gift we can give to ourselves. We should not want to get too many things in this world at any moment in time.  Not many people can get everything they want in a single lifetime.  If we get too many things at once, then we will receive too much to not knowing what we want next.  We all have a whole lifetime to get the things we want.  Work up to it and you will get it eventually.

The greed and the selfishness is a human trait which is our most disgusting part of us.  Instead of being greedy, we should be patient in our lives.  Asking for something will only allow us to get it later in life.  It is why the world’s economic mess has been so horrible lately.  We need to think about our self and not doubt any part of what we do.  I have a journey of thousands of more miles left in me to get what I want.  I don’t know how close I am, but I am sure I am probably closer than I think.  Some might be a long stretch for me.  I could try anyway.

We have to know how much we all are the same.   Every living creature who breathes is the same.  We all as living creatures need to determine how we have a guaranteed life to live our fate, and strive for our destiny.  Some people have an easier time at reaching their destiny while others just live their fate.  Our lives constitute the greatest nature in our fate.  My destiny is just beginning to come true, but I can not forget about my fate.  We can control own fate sometimes too.  There are many paths we can take, and we should all take the path not so many people take.  It is making me feel as if the reason why people are so greedy and impatient is because they take the path others take often.  By doing this, they expect sympathy from others. I know somebody who expects sympathy all the time and she stops at no cost to try and receive this sympathy.  She even writes it for others to see.  No body needs to receive sympathy from anybody. Sympathy is something people get which lasts a short while.  When people are constantly trying to gain more and more sympathy from others, I feel this is a disgusting way to live.  It is also is the wrong kind of attention one should get.  In addition, not every one should get attention all the time. There are many other people who need to receive attention too.   Attention is a good thing, but there are so many other people living in this world who seek it too.  Attention: Be more attentive to the whole world not just to yourself… Be an individual not a follower!

Take it easy,

OUT, J

Every one needs to Focus on the Solution not the Problem…

It relates well to Autism Spectrum Disorders. Every body is so focused on the facts Autism Spectrum is a problem, but if they defocus on the problem, they can solve the solution by looking at the WHOLE Picture.

Autism Spectrum Disorders has bigger more positive picture to it.

Enjoy the scene from Patch Adams: MY Favorite scene in the movies.

The Movie “Adam” with Hugh Dancy is going to be at the Sundance Film Festival!!!

Check this link out for the movie “Adam.

comingsoon

So, if any of you want to see this film I highly recommend you see the film.
A few of my select friends from Adaptations and I who have Asperger Syndrome helped Hugh Dancy prepare for the lead role.

I can’t wait to finally see the Big Picture and see all the small details in the movie. Yes, I am a critique! Just like the way I do my Ultrasounds critiquing myself and others. Ultrasound is a great tool for diagnosis of patients. (read the about section if you don’t know what I am talking about)

the website I found it from, it will be great!!!!!

I want to show every one the TRUE Asperger Syndrome and Autism NOT what all these Vaccine Activists and People for a cure of Autism/Asperger Syndrome try and tell people what this whole thing is about.

You must talk and/or communicate in some way with a Aspie/Autie in order to know the true feelings of us.
I am glad they spoke with my friends and I.

I think this movie will be a great success! It has excellent cast and with an excellent cast you also need phenomenal cinematography, directing, art design, screenwriting,… anything to make a team work. Teamwork is the key. If you are not a good team, nothing goes right. As long as the film crew works well as a team, they can make a great movie.

Just look at certain sports teams which fell a part or with anything for that matter. The United States of America must work as a Team. Each nation has to work as a team. TEAMWORK WORKS! Remember there is no ‘I’ in TEAM!

Take it easy,

OUT, J

Chloe the Maltese Dog after another snowstorm in the Brink of another winter

There is a difference between Fear and No Fear, Know the difference

The only reason why people hate is because deep down inside they also fear something so intense they can’t resist the fear. Instead they use a defense mechanism to hate certain people, creatures, and things. It is incredible why people fear so much. Fear is a dangerous incline to hate.

It happened to Anakin and Tom, so why would anybody allow it to happen to themselves.

Remember fear is an incredible statement which proves destruction. We need to love and stay focused on our tasks. If we want to do something, we do it, we don’t just think emotionally. Think of our discovery of self. Theory of Mind. What is theory of Mind anyway? I guess it is time to read up on it now. One last thought to remember the construction of every person in this world is found by positive reinforcement and love. Anybody who fears too much needs some kind of help.

Pictures to come of Chloe in the snow!!!

I know I hope to make it to the Bronx Zoo this week. That would be fun.

Have Fun this weekend!

OUT, J

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

We need to think about what makes us all beautiful!

This is a purpose of the existence of all creatures on this Earth…

OUT, J

Thinking Thinking and Thinking…

How much can we think about something again and again which bothers us?

I don’t know how to stop thinking about things which bother me. People tell me to just live my life. I have been doing this often now and marking a different way to my long life where happiness and deceit/despair exist at the same time. I can’t believe deceit/despair exists at all. Things must change. New Year’s 2009 is coming soon which means a New Year’s Resolutions as well. I have a few New Year’s Resolutions to make myself. I don’t think anybody should not wish anything since wishes are just false hopes. Instead if we just make ourselves a list of New Year’s Resolutions by writing it down on paper posting it on our doors or anywhere we will see it everyday in 2009, we will follow those resolutions.

Let’s see the New Year’s song goes like this, ‘For all gracious…” Well, I can’t really sing the whole song in this post, but you get my drift. For one day of the year, the whole world comes together. It would be nice if 365 days of the year the whole world was always together. We must think about our resolutions this year about how we’d like to make differences. Think of your passions when you were a child never thinking about how much money these passions could make or even will make. All things come with time. Nothing was built for a whole day as a kingdom of fortune. Of course first you must ask yourself ‘how old you are? and how well you are?’ because if you are not well enough health comes first.

All the people of this world need to drive thoughts in to their minds thinking of things they love to do with passion. Many people who work in finance or any other field giving lot’s of money at first hand, these are jobs which target greed, not passion. These days I find very few people who are actually doing finance who love what they do. Finance is a field like any other field, if you love it you do it, if you hate it you don’t do it. I am lucky enough to have found a field a love to do. It is unrelated to finance in many ways (Read the About section).

I just find thinking is a good way to set our minds straight. My mom sometimes says thinking too much can be dangerous because we might just so happen to stir the wrong pot in our minds. If we learn to use our minds to the fullest and continue to learn new things in our field of interest, we go further along the path to happiness. A happy person starts out struggling with vigor even though in the end the triumphant victory was worth it.

People may look at you like you are crazy trying to do anything to succeed, but you should laugh in their faces because you will have the last laugh to heavenly heights.

Posting again soon…

OUT, J

Bruce Lee: Youtube Video…

Think about what anger and negativity does to a person.

Think positive. Think Euphoric. Think with less Emotion.

I know I and we all think with our emotions sometimes, but hey I feel we need to not do it so much.

Take it easy feeling like the snow in the Northeast is going to be fun today!

OUT, J

A frustration of mine

There are so much frustrations in my life.  At least it will snow today, which will make more fun at home.  The only thing I need to do is be on top of shoveling once an hour.  At least I can switch off the hour of shoveling.

Posting all day today so I check this site for some updates. I know my responsibilities come first.
OUT, J

Complications and more complications this world lives in

People live in this world and take life for granted.  When I go out in public lately, I become so highly verbal because I want people to change their minds of what they want want out of this world. I yell out on the street, ‘Please do not worry so much about money’.  Yes, money is the object which gives us the power to buy for our needs and wants.  Unfortunately, we have to know when our wants should wait for another time.   I feel if we choose certain wants a year and no more, then every year we will want something.  We should not get everything we want in our youth because later in life when we are seniors, we won’t know what else we want.  I think something we should all cherish are each and every  want we get ourselves or somebody who gives them to us.  By cherishing this want and not thinking we want more, in the end, we can get more.

Sometimes what we want is something we earned and we do not receive this wanted piece for our life. This is when we get frustrated.  Things take time and we need to be patient even when patience takes years till we honestly get it.   The question could  sometimes be,  how long do you wait? I find waiting a few years is hard and a few months more is even harder, but after all it could be worth the wait.

Patience is a virtue and when we continue to work hard and accomplish our dreams, things happen.  A couple of weeks ago, I felt like giving something to the nursery schools in New York City.  I gave a book on anatomy to be aware of your body at an early age.  It looked like a good book for children.  I felt the earlier a child sees their body the way it is, the more these children can live healthier lives.  We need to teach healthy ways of living by explaining the body to children as early as we can, explaining good social behavior/skills in a way which is instilled in their minds, and using the unique talents which could someday be a career/job for these children.

Anybody with Asperger Syndrome and Autism need more attention and support at an earlier age.  The more people recognize this at an early age, people can intervene.  Generations before of people with Autism Spectrum did not necessarily have the intervention we can give these children now.  Some generations before of people with Autism Spectrum made it because without realizing it, they had received some of the intervention they needed.  Just look at the people who succeeded with ASD in the past years and know your child today can be a success story too.  Others did not succeed and fell through the cracks because honestly they did not get all the support they needed at an early age.  How early can we detect Autism Spectrum? I feel my mom can detect very early.  By detecting an Autism Spectrum at an early age, no body should fall through any crack ever again.

We need to support and help oneanother since this is what being humble is truly about.

Posting again soon…

OUT, J