drive mom crazy

My great team who who works with me to get me where I ought to be at!!

There are many people in my life who have helped me become the person I am today.  I am attending a program called ” Creative Alternatives of New York.” This program is one of the catalyst that has enabled me to move forward.  I have been blessed with many mentors in my life who helped me.

It makes me wonder what really brings joy to my life.    My mother and father are one in a billion who will try and help me out the best way they can. I have always felt closer to my father than my brothers through the years.  I think it is because he could also possibly be on the Autism Spectrum as well.  If he is, I don’t think he needs a diagnosis because he is doing great.  His personality has been developed and smoothed over several times in which I feel he has made it.  My father is a great person who will always find peace of mind because he always creates it for himself.  He is an individual who I can also look up to with honor.

This team which was assembled for me began when I was born and my mother was the main person in my life to help me.  Through the years in public school, there was one other man who started being the outsider who had the greatest impact on my life.  He and I became very close during those years.  He is a teacher who helped me get through those years, and even though we had no idea what the true diagnosis was.  He is now trying to have a better understanding of children with an Autism Spectrum Disorder.  I know the type of person he is, that he will try to understand as much as he can to gain the knowledge and help other people. He doesn’t know about the Autism Spectrum right now as much as he wants to, but I know he will read up on it since he is always willing to learn.  He is very humble and kind which is a trait everybody who has helped me in the past has had.

These people who helped or help me in my life all seem to have very similar personalities through the years.  A special person who was at Adaptations had always been there for me, he is a person involved with people with disabilities to work with them to learn skills.  He and I have worked well together before he left Adaptations.  I hope he can still work with me through the years to make me a better person.

He knows I am like the energizer bunny and have the tenacity to keep on striding.  By his interaction with me I know he believes I will not give up.  There is a possibility that I will have to travel to other locations for my work.  This does make me feel uncomfortable to go to unfamiliar places.  Adapting to new situations is always a challenge for me, but I know I can easily learn this with time.  I just need to give it a chance.  My boss has the confidence in me and I will not let him down.  By his understanding of Asperger Syndrome and the many intricacies, which is a rarity for any boss to understand,  he is always willing to learn and humble person.  My boss does become frustrated with me at times.  I know when he feels this way by the look on his face. I just continue to do my job and know he will talk to me later on to point out what I did.

I know I have not really  been listening to the people who are trying to help me.  I need to listen to people who have my best interest in mind especially when I write these posts.  I want to follow through on what people are trying to help me work on my activities of daily living and my interactions.  I want to show other individuals on the on the Autism Spectrum, that they have a chance to live their life to the fullest.

I met this friend Manny at Adaptations a year ago and now we have become very good friends. Manny and I have a great deal in common and we both want to be able to be productive members of society.  One of the bonds we both share are our willpower and determination.   We help each other out in so many ways by talking through issues we are having times and being supportive of each other.

I love my whole team in my life especially now with the people in my life at the moment.  I can not ask for more and I will not.  Oh yeah, if it was not for one other person who lives in Puerto Rico now, I definitely would not be where I am today. She and I are very good friends, I’d have to say Best Friends forever. She is like my guardian angel if I really did have one.   She is taking care of her baby and husband now like a real mother/wife does, and I know she is very happy.

We should all think of all the great people who have helped us in our life.  It is important to give a big Thank you to all those people every once in awhile.  Not all the time, but once in awhile to show them you always appreciate what they do.  Never do things because other people do it.  Just do the thing you love the most to ‘just do it’ like Nike says in its commercials.

Thank you to my webmaster because you help me out so much and I am very grateful for what you do for me and my website.  I will be putting up more of my fiction and poetry up as well.

Have the most wonderful day because today is the beginning of a great positive life coming up for all of us.

The ball has been passing by my plate and instead of swinging and missing, I can get a Grand Slam any time any day.

OUT, J

PS We should learn from the people who did not help us as well because those people may need help for themselves.

Chloe resting on on my bed since it is a rainy day to do nothing

Chloe trying to find ways to do something instead resting on my bed.

OUT,

J

Oh My goodness, the Oompa Loompa’s are back!!

Chinkety Chink He Huh Huh…

I can’t believe it is coming to the time of year for the holiday season.  I celebrate Jewish holidays, and Chanukah is not a holiday Jewish people need to celebrate.  We only celebrate this holiday and make a big deal because of Christmas is around the same time.  Every body wants to feel important so that is why so many people will celebrate their holidays no matter what religion they are.

Religion is man-made, but faith is not.  We all interpret what is up there differently. We all agree there is a positive energy and negative energy. We all agree this world is dependent on Yoda wisdom and the Star Wars theme.  It is the most important aspect of our lives.  Every movie or book ever made was based on this wisdom even before Star Wars.

The force is strong on both sides, but stronger on the Dark Side of the Force.  We need to maintain our strength to overcome the Emotional Dark Side of the Force.  Lord Voldemort from the Harry Potter series is very much in tune with the Dark Side of the Force.  We need to be more like Luke and Leah, than Anakin.

Luke had more strength than his father Anakin so this means Luke can transfer his powers easily to heal.  Anakin transfers his power to make people suffer.

This is bad. This is why there are so many people in this world trying to make others suffer because of their own personal experiences and weakness.  It is a global problem some people have.  Think about it for a moment.  Whenever you feel stressed or about to get angry, think of the reasons why you are getting angry.

Take a moment to remember all the good things the person did for you and the reason why the person got you upset.  May be there is a reason and you should listen rather than get upset.

Anakin Skywalker became Darth Vader because of his weaknesses.  Don’t be like this character. Be yourself, Be human, Be the positive euphoric person you could be.

Don’t feel you are never getting enough.  Don’t ever feel this way because we are always getting plenty and helping this world out tremendously.   I love this world and you should love it back.  Don’t even hurt animals because they are the Autistic person you may even be talking with on the bus one day. We all will have the true spotlight one day soon. You know what the true spotlight for every individual in this world.

Please use more than 10 % of your brain. We need to start using more of our brain.  Nowadays the average human uses only 10 % of their brain.

Listen, Learn, Respect!!

We are all equally human and we are all equally the respectful nature of our ancestors.

Take it easy,

OUT, J

I can’t wait to see Hugh Dancy’s film ‘Adam’

I know I helped Hugh Dancy with playing the part of ‘Adam’ who is a character with Asperger Syndrome. I can’t wait to to see this film finally. It will be amazing to see how I helped Hugh Dancy with the film.

Thank you Hugh Dancy for listening to my friends and I.  I can’t wait to see your film and how much I helped an actor do his part in a movie.

Hugh is a great person and he has great charisma and a very caring heart.  He will make this world proud whent the movie wins an Oscar from the Academy Awards.  I know this to be true and I hope Oscar is waiting for your honor to be awarded finally.

We must all stay humble and true to ourselves so that the spotlight stays on us. Otherwise the spotlight will leave because no body can allow anything get in the way of their life.

I will succeed at staying humble and grounded. It is very important.

I know Hugh Dancy will to because he is a good person as well.  I think he will show the world even more about life’s journey and it struggles with everybody in this world.  Everybody struggles and we all need to show the deep strength inside of us all to get through the struggles.

Take it easy and let it be known we will all have the ease of struggles. GO BARACK OBAMA!!!! TAKE IT WITH STRIDE!

OUT, J

Love is in the air, isn’t this true?

This is the truth about life.  Love is the greatest fortune in our life. My love is my love for g-d.  I will love no body more.   I will live in my solitude because I don’t need anybody else next to me in my bed.  I can live in my life this way because this is my make up.  I hope everybody understands this about me.

Some day I want to take a trip by myself to some place where I can camp out on my own like how Henry David Thoreau did. He was incredible.  I find the truth is I can just live my life with my interests, friends, and family without ever trying to be in any kind of relationship ever.

I don’t need one to survive.

I can survive by myself.  AIntimate Sexual Relationships are the most stressful things a life can put anybody through. It is difficult and no body can understand how difficult how a relationship I mentioned can be this way.  I’d rather be on my own, I choose it, I choose to live in solitude.

A difference in people is so hard to understand sometimes. My brothers and rest of my family can not live in solitude, but I can. Most of the world can not live in solitude.

OUT, J

Learning from mistakes I make is very good to do

It seems to me I can’t lie and whenever I try to lie, it causes trouble for myself because everybody sees it all over my face. I can’t seem to lie to anybody.  I try to, but it is very hard since my face shows I am lying.  I think it is an amazing tale to tell a lie and be able to get away with it.  My friend who is my mentor tells me he sees it all over my face when I try to. I am horrible liar. I do this because I don’t like to take responsibility for my actions.  I try and tell a fable like everybody else which does not work.  I need to be more patient with my learning by not trying to tell a fable which does not work, and by telling people the truth the way I always know it. This way I learn.

This is not good because I really need to tell the truth like I know the truth already even though the truth will hurt me.  It is very important to tell the truth.  I have done it most of my life, but at times I seem to not want to take responsibility for my actions.

I need to because I need to be able to learn from my mistakes which in the past, I did not want to.  I seemed so upset by doing the mistake, that I would try and blame somebody else for my mistake.  At times this would cause trouble with the person I tell and the person I told did what I said.  The person I told knew I was lying because they read it all over my face, and the person I told did what I said, gets upset as well.  I know I need to take responsibility for my actions. I need to learn from my mistakes.

I know I will do this starting today because I need to be able to become a better person.  I never liked anything I would do because I would think I seemed like a bad person. I know now from my mom telling me I need to just learn from my mistakes.  Life is a learning experience and it is the only way to really learn.

I feel if people sat down with me more to visually show me what I did which was wrong, I would learn a whole lot better.

Think about Visual thinkers and how we learn…

these are short posts, but I don’t always need to write long ones!

posting again soon,

OUT, J

Being a Visual Learner is great, but challenge for people to teach me to be appropriate

I am very visual person. I always have been and I always will be.  It is just part of my nature. I can not process things by hearing them.  Most of the time I just hear noise when people talk to try and get me to do something.

It is a strange thing to most people, but this is the  way I am.  I hope my family and friends read this knowing I am already like this. Whenever I am told something I need to do or anything, I just can’t process the information. It is part of my make up.

My feeling inside is it must get many people frustrated with me because they do not know how to tell me to do something.  Well, it is simple, just get a pen and paper and write it down neatly for me.  It only takes a few extra minutes.

I need to learn things the proper way not because everyone else learns it that way.  I love the way I learn, I learn also by example. Mostly the way an animal learns.  Autistic people are like Animals just like the book “Animals in Translation ” by Temple Grandin.  I feel she is right. I feel I am exactly this way and I always have been. My parents would get frustrated with me because I would not listen to them, but I can’t really hear them at all because all I hear is noise.  I don’t really hear a word they say no matter how loud they yell. Sometimes my mom will put her mouth on my ear and start yelling, but that is so much sensory integration for me, I go crazy just trying to stop my ears from exploding.  It is very hard to deal with this problem my mother tends to do.  She does this with my brothers, but they are Neurotypical so they can handle this.

I also do not like touch and will not let anybody kiss me or hug me or touch me in general. I will live in solitude. Solitude is great and only certain people in the world can really do this. I have platonic friends and my family, but the rest of my life is solitude.

I enjoy solitude fully and find certain things too stressful.   I love my work and I love all the people I work with including the doctor I work with who I have a strong bond with and am very close to.  It is amazing how much I love my Ultrasound scanning. It is fantastic.

Anyway, I hope to post later on. I am going to see Madagascar 2 with my Grandmother tonight because it is the best movie out in the theaters now.

OUT, J

Living in the World

There are too many people living in this world who take life for granted.  This is sad.  Life is too precious for this.  We must see the positive outlook in every individual in this world.  Even the person who says they feel the most positive in the world, sees some negative too.  Negative feelings are our strong intense angry emotions which get to us the most. It is why Jenny McCarthy wants to eliminate the vaccines to be given to people.  Vaccines do not cause Autism. There is no cure for Autism at all. Stop thinking this and only think of the Positive things this whole world can give even your son or daughter who has an Autism Spectrum Disorder or better yet any disability for that matter can do something.  We must consider all aspects of a person’s life to be considered in this world.  Yes, there may be a lot of negative, but please focus on the little bit of positive which can overcome the negative.

Take it or leave it and never just leave it. Take it with stride, Take it with passion.  We are all a creation which has purpose in this world.  I know some of you think of the negative which gets to be so strong and intense, you only want things to happen and even say “I wish” or “I hope”. NO, this is wrong!!!!

Please just think of the influences and strides which can help the person who is struggling.  I know there are some people who won’t make huge strides, but at least they can make baby step achievements in life and you must always take care of this person who is struggling.  No matter what the situation occurs in life there is always a reason for a chance in life.

I had a discussion with a few people who say they don’t think everybody can be a contributing paid worker in society, some people just can’ t do it. Yes, this may be true.  There is always something somebody can do even if it is a really small job which has very little responsibility.

Ease the person in to it and they will achieve it.  I know I am high functioning and I am being able to achieve a lot in my life, but there is a way in which everybody can do the things for success. We have to work together as equals. Humble people all the way and take enough strides for helping others.  There is no way a single person can do nothing in life.  The Artistic Spectrum is huge and many of us on the Autism Spectrum are very intense in the arts or very intense in the sciences.  My science skills are so intense and inspiring.  I love to use ultrasound to scan the heart and the vascular system.  I love getting difficult studies to perform.  It is a challenge and relieving for me to feel relaxed, I can feel successful finally.  Our attention to small details can help people out big time.

Take it easy and I know everybody can do something.  I love life.

OUT, J

Show who you are…

You must show your inner workings to the outside to give the world the knowledge or art you so deeply want to share.  Sharing is caring, right? I hope so.

A feeling of dealing with anger issues just makes all of us different sets of people.  Yoda is right though.  We need to show more love in the world.  We need to end disputes peacefully.  There is too many people fighting in the world whether it is small or big fights.  Every body needs to find fault in themselves without pointing the finger at anybody else.

We may get angry, we may get sad, but there is no reason to get this way when most of the time we all cause our own problems.  The United States of America caused a war in Iraq which is a problem, but we caused it.  Now we need to stop it from happening without just abandoning it and letting the world fall a part.

We live in this world for a reason. Show who you are and what you can do.  We should all try to use at least another 10 % of minds rather than only using 10 % of our minds to begin with.  I wonder what kind of accomplishments we could make if everybody used 100 % of their minds.  We would be fascinating creatures in the Universe.  For some reason, I don’t think it is meant to be this way.

There is a reason why we only use 10 % of our minds and this reason tells us 10 % of our minds is our limitation for the world.  We were given this as a starting point.  Now we must overcome this and use the rest of our mind to accomplish more.  Stress may inhibit us from doing this and this is something we all need to minimize.

More to come on this topic, just tired anyway…

OUT, J

Back to the Adult life…

Now we are back in the Adult life again wondering what those last two posts were about.  Think of all the things which lead us in to a life of misery and also those things which lead us in to a life of happiness.  A happy story can begin and end happy.  It all depends on you.  When we are born, we are born happy because our mother brought us in to this world.  When we die, we either keep the happiness or die in misery.

Misery loves company, happiness seems to not love company so much.  How come?  For whatever reason, there seems to be a constant attention for negative misery than positive happiness.  I will get this whole world to change their perceptions on the world.

Many people who believe in a cure for Autism or believe vaccines cause Autism or are searching for something to end Autism Spectrum Disorders is only thinking of the negative life has to offer.  You must think of the positive Joy in life.  Joy to the World the people have come!

The people are coming and the people are enjoying their lives, please let them do so.

I know the song, the Circle game which goes like this sung by Joni Mitchell:

“Yesterday a child came out to wonder
Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star
Then the child moved ten times round the seasons
Skated over ten clear frozen streams
Words like, when youre older, must appease him
And promises of someday make his dreams
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
Cartwheels turn to car wheels thru the town
And they tell him,
Take your time, it wont be long now
Till you drag your feet to slow the circles down
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true
Therell be new dreams, maybe better dreams and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return, we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game”

These lyrics Joni Mitchell sings is the purpose of our lives.  We are built on a cycle. If we build negative energy in to the cylce, everybody becomes negative.

Think of this realistically and change your mindset. Never say anything like : I wish, I can’t, I hope, I pray, …

These are examples of just a few negative phrases to say.  A prayer is something which is not just something said in your religion, a prayer could be as simple as saying ‘Hello’ or ‘Goodbye’ or even ‘Goodnight/Good Morning’.  You don’t need to go to Temple, Church, or any place you worship to say a prayer.

Prayers are very strong and everybody makes a new prayer a day. If it is negative, negative happens, if it is positive, positive happens.

Take your life and take with stride.  I am trying my hardest to this everyday now never to say any one single word which can hurt me in the end.

Life is a journey of millions or billions of words.  This is a world with many different types of people who say many different types of words.  Each word is a powerful saying which can lead you in either direction.

OUT, J

Stick to your gut and things will happen

I know if you stick to your gut and believe in yourself, things will happen for the better.  I know things seemed to go to the children area on my site in the most recent post, but I think we should all think of our past which made us feel special.  A special moment in history makes us all realize our true potential in life.  In Adaptations, there is a member in the group who is obsessed with Mr. Rogers.  Many of the other members don’t like hearing  it and neither do I, I am realizing Mr. Rogers did have some points he did bring up which are positive.  He tried to instill in all of us the initial experience of the world when we were children.  Mr. Rogers kept on telling us stuff like sharing and staying humble.  I think this member has a point there with sharing, but I think he is missing one piece the puzzle and that is to stay as humble as equal to the world as you can be.

There is one other cartoon which taught us as well, I’d like to share a video with you about this cartoon.  It is He-Man.  He-Man was a cartoon which taught Social Skills and positive energy to the world.  Telling us when we are negative things don’t happen properly and stuff happens where we feel very upset. Things happen for a reason and I know we will all be the better person who will succeed at whatever little or big success we all want to achieve. I know not every one can achieve the same things.

I loved the He-Man cartoons because of the things which were taught to me or at least tried to teach me.

Hope you enjoy…

These are the lessons He-Man taught us:

I know I will post soon…Take it easy and I hope you understand what I am talking about with the positive energy which needs a twizzler to form a Tornado to swoosh away the negative forever. Twizzlers make mouths happy.

You should think about your favorite cartoon which brought out the good in you.

OUT, J

Give me a break off of that Kit Kat Bar Thank you very much!

There is so many things we can and will do most of the time.  My life consists of things which happen to a degree of either positive or negative.  It happens to this way probably to all of us.  A Kit Kat bar is one of the most amazing chocolate creations ever made especially the name and its slogan to give me a break. It means many different things to many people.  It’s Grrrrrrrrrrreat, says Tony the Tiger of Frosted Flakes.  Yummy Yummy in my tummy, I like eating yummy things.  There are so many things adults like me have eaten as children.  Has anybody ever remember those disgusting sour candies?  How gross? I would be repulsed by them. Some people actually loved those candies.

There are so many different kinds of candies with slogans for one single person to read and enjoy the candy.

Does anybody remember Hopskotch or even when Happy your happy and you know it…?  These things were engraved in us to show us to be positive in this world and to be happy with our lives.

This song is something which everybody should listen to. Everybody in this world should be happy they are living doing all the things in this world they intend to do even when things are not going their way right now. It is something we should all remember to listen to always.

Even this one, Twinkle Twinkle little star:

Remember this song, it is something we should all remember. It remembers our dreams we had when we were little of things we wanted to achieve. Achievement can happen for anybody whether little or big. I know everybody will achieve something so little or so big in this world.

Here is another song from another time from a man in Hawaii who died a while back:

I love thinking of things which help me out a lot. I know it will help you out too. We will conquer these obstacles this world has hit us in the bucket with. I know Barack Obama can help be the catalyst, we just need to give him a chance. Chances are, let’s me remembers another song from this, listen to this as well…Smile!!!!! Smile like this woman in this video…

posting later on…

OUT, J

Capabilities for people to Work and get paid at a Job

The capablilities for people to work and get paid at a Job are very important for anybody to realize.  These capabalities include time management, organization, boundaries, quality work, asking questions when you need to, listening skills, learning, realizing imperfection exists, teaching others, and taking responsiblity for your actions.  These issues are very important to think about.  The school I create will not only teach every student the concepts to work in Ultrasound, but will also teach every student to be a good worker as well as social skills.  I think the current Ultrasound Schools all over the country lack teaching every student to be a good worker and social skills.  The name of my school will be called the Buena Salud Ultrasound School to respect people who taught me Ultrasound and also I needed a name which was better than using Patch Adams’ name he gave to his hospital.

It is very important and like somebody told me, it is probably good in the long term to do this type of school.  I first need to find an area I can build a school like this and research every statistic to get a really good school up there.

The Buena Salud Ultrasound School will help all those who are like me on the Autism Spectrum willing to learn and anybody else willing to learn Ultrasound, but have trouble learning due to a learning disability.  I hope everything happens for me in this school and I hope I can make a big difference in this world.  Buena Salud Ultrasound School will have a great reputation to allow students to work with the externship site they are given who will be able to work with the students.

It is a vision I have which can be done.  Think of all the ways in which Ultrasound can change people’s lives and have successors in life working for you.  We all need a successor in life. We need to show people how to be capable at a paid working job.  I am told though I need to realize not everyone is capable of working. I wish this was not true.

Buena Salud, Buena Salud Ultrasound School!!!!!

Let’s do it, anybody else in with me!!!!!!
OUT, J

The small details someone with an Autism Spectrum Disorder sees

Ultrasound is a perfect job for somebody on the Autism Spectrum to be able to see the details no body else can see.

I would like to start an Ultrasound school strictly for anybody on the Autism Spectrum to go to learn from me.

How would everyone love this? I and the rest of this school I will create will honor other Spectrumites to learn this trade to become a contributing member of society.

I think from all the people seeing the ABCnews.com site, no body would deny an externship to an Individual with Autism Spectrum Disorder.

I want to be able to help out the rest of the Autism Spectrum community do work which will be not only lifesaving to them, but rewarding to them as well since they can also save other lives.

Anybody can do anything they put their mind to, it just takes time and practice.  Ultrasound especially in Cardiac and Vascular is an art form which a person with an ASD can see small details no body else can see.

Take it easy,

OUT, J