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Feeling out of place in a world which does not accept anything!

There is something in life which goes further than accepting Autism Spectrum Disorders, this is Accepting anything in your life. We need to accept whatever changes or anything for that matter. For example, we need to accept death, no body in the world can accept it since they see death as an end. Death is just an oxymoron for continuing our way up the ladder. Earth is just just a place where we need to learn things for ourselves for the betterment of whatever comes next. Some people say its called Heaven, but frankly we just don’t know what its called. In the end we are trying to reach an area of superiority (meaning in layman’s terms G-d), but instead we are really in a cycle. We live our life on Earth thinking of hope and wishing, but this is just something which makes more of a cycle. We need to all move forward and accept anything which comes our way. Open our eyes and see what is coming your way because it could be a way forward to fulfilling your time on Earth.

The problem is most people don’t realize what they need to do or don’t want to accept their mission. Most people become too afraid and then the suffering starts. Let go of yourself and be free! It is your only chance to stop the cycle and move forward, move on. We are intended to live here on Earth for a reason, stick to this reason, and work with it. We all need to feel passion all the time in what we do.

Think about yourself, think about what you do, and think about whether or not you are doing what you were made to do. I AM! Not every one can be a banker, not every one can be in healthcare, not every one can be a teacher, not every one can invent, not every one can be a writer, an actor, not every one a painter…We need to do something we have always been dreaming of ever since we were a child.

Success is when we establish our passions to do what we are comfortable doing for ourselves and others!

OUT, J

Willingness

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We must be willing to give!
OUT, J

Positive Feelings in a person go a long way

This week in the life of DMC there have been much stress, anxiety,hardship, and trying to stay focused on a positive attitude.  Many things happened this week good and bad. The bad seemed to try and divert my focus. Instead I end the week with a positive note.  We should only talk about the positive good things in life and for every bad thing, learn from the bad actions to turn it into a positive.

This week like many other weeks this year,  I have found many heads up pennies lying on the ground in front of me.   I pick them up and make a wish, knowing for sure it will come true.  I also have been noticing my right palm of my hand constantly itches me for months.  Every time I tell my granny this news, she repeats “It means money is on the way to you.”“  Well, if this is really true, I can’t wait.  I am dead serious, I really know it will happen.  All it takes is a willingness to achieve.

In order to achieve, we just need to stop using the word ‘Hope’ because all it does is create tension and negativity.  We also need to stop using words in the passive sense as well  and instead say “I will, I can, I know…”  Positive words lead to positive things happening in life.  Hope is in my opinion the worst word in the human language, but everyone uses it since they they think its neutral.

Organizations like AutismSpeaks do not see the full picture in any person on the Autism Spectrum because they use my opinion of negative words like ‘Hope’.  These organizations see a person struggling and want to cure the person struggling. They see Autism Spectrum Disorders as a puzzle, but it is not a puzzle.  People don’t get that life is a puzzle in itself.  Every one in the world lives a life trying to solve their own puzzle.  Piecing together what they don’t have and get it after hard work.  Sometimes it takes a lifetime like with Autism Spectrum Disorders or any body else trying to succeed, but in the end it always takes time.

It is  faith and destiny which guide us a long our path and with our proper use of our condition to persevere we build our lives.  Small steps a long our path are the best way to success because it is the slow and steady way.  Many Neurotypical people watch a person trying to succeed slowly and try to push us away from our goal.  These Neurotypicals which do this run ahead of us and feel bad.  These Neurotypicals  see this person afraid. They see this person not like them and become afraid of the unknown, but fear leads to negativity.

People with Autism Spectrum Disorders are very unique and intelligent. We are the people who can someday invent things or have invented things.  We are the people who understand nature.  We are the people who can create.  We are the people who love compassion.  We are the people who follow are dreams to pursue those dreams to the fullest of our advantage.  We are the people who won’t stop until our rights happen to be seen and heard. There is a willingness in individuals with Autism Spectrum Disorders to succeed at any one thing.  Every one else just needs to see what we want to achieve and guide individuals like us; people on the Autism Spectrum or even any body with a disability.

I see the work of many Neurotypicals willing to take their time out to help an individual with Autism Spectrum Disorder or any disability achieve.  Those are the humble Neurotypicals who should be celebrated all over.  I saw it many times with a lot of Neurotypicals helping me and continuing to help me.

Think. Dream. Achieve. Succeed.

posting again soon,

OUT, J

Creative Alternatives of New York and how it helps

This is a video of interviews done from some people at Creative Alternatives of New York (CANY) and behind the scenes of the making of To Be Seen, a production I am in about Visibility. A few things I continue to learn in CANY and those things are spontaneous thinking and it has helped me communicate in awkward situations like at my place of work at Yonkers. I have been going to CANY since January 2008 and it has been such a inspiration for me as well as being able to capture my imagination through drama. It really has helped me realize I don’t have to be embarrassed or afraid and just go with the flow. By the way, this week I am realizing more how lucky I have been to learn one on one with the cardiologist I work with for over 3 years. I keep on growing and maturing. We are helping patients with varicose veins now and I am understanding how a doctor thinks and tries to help their patients in the best way possible. Hopefully I get more hours and shine brighter. Although I still have much more maturation in the making, I feel like I am Edward in the movie “Edward Scissorhands”. I am just not finished yet, but someday I will be. There are two more summer sessions of CANY in January and once again starts up in the Fall. I hope to join it once again and continue to improve myself. Behind the scenes of To Be Seen, a drama production I perform in:

OUT, J

Need to do what I need to do

I get a lot of people telling me to do what I need to do first.  I should not do extra, I should not do too little, just what I need to do whether it is at work or at home.  I need come to a balance.  Once I come to a balance in my life, no body can tell me what I am doing is wrong.  Everything will be right.  There are certain examples of work related and home related functions I need to do in order to get things done.  If I do too little or too much, I don’t get anything done.  By too much, I am getting in to areas I should not worry about, and by too little I am not doing things I am supposed to be doing.  There needs to be a balance.  In life, not everything is going to be a joyous thing to do.  There are many things which are not enjoyable, but have to get done.

I can’t get annoyed, angry, or upset just because at home I want to do something else.  At work I need to not get angry, annoyed, or upset just because something wasn’t done right and needs to be done again.  I should not stress over anything too little because there are bigger stresses to worry about in life like bills.

From this day forward I am going to try harder to balance myself so that I won’t be questioned by anyone more frequently than I have been.

I know life is about not stressing over the little things, doing the things which need to be done, and finding a balance.

Anyway, I will posting again soon.

There is a saying My friend and I say to each other; he says Stay Strong and I say Stay Humble!

Time to start my day doing just that to get ahead! yes, I said it for the people who care and help me!

OUT, J

What does this image remind you of?

This image is a cool image I found from Space.com

posting again soon,

OUT, J

Do you have Varicose Veins and have problems with your legs?

I have been finding more people complaining of leg pains due to varicose veins lately. Everywhere I go, I observe many people walking around struggling to walk. I think I have become more aware ever since I have been doing this at my job. There are many people who do not realize their problems with the legs is solely due to the veins and there are solutions. There are over 4 billion people in the world and about half those people in the world probably develop superficial venous problems. I bet every one in their lifetime can develop this problem. This means the solutions for the vein problems in the legs is a growing business. Many doctors are trying to help their patients who have vein issues especially cardiovascular doctors. There are at least 3 ways to rid of varicose veins; the traditional vein stripping surgery, laser ablation of the superficial veins, and Radio frequency ablation. At work, the doctor I work for uses Radio Frequency ablation from the VNUS corporation. For more information contact me on my site.

The process to test to see if you require a procedure to rid of the superficial veins is by a seeing a cardiovascular doctor. The doctor will ask you a bunch of questions about your legs and have an ultrasound technologist like myself scan your legs for superficial venous abnormalities called Reflux. Superficial Venous Reflux is when the valve(s) in your vein(s) become incompetent or lack to help push blood back to the heart. If the problem continues for a long period of time, the leg can develop swelling, discoloration, and eventually ulcers.

There are two kinds of Superficial Venous Incompetencies, Primary and Secondary. Primary Superficial Venous incompetency is genetic and occur as we age. Secondary Superficial Venous Incompetency is more serious because the veins tend to lie deeper in the muscles. The Deep Veins in your legs are the main drainage in your legs to the heart. The closer the superficial veins connect closer to the deep venous system, the more dangerous the problem because blood clots can develop. When the superficial connects to the deep system this called a perforator. Veins are supposed to drain the legs so when the veins are not properly functioning, perforators form. If the perforator valves become incompetent, ulcers form. The leg becomes dead tissue eventually.

It is important to identify the problem in your legs immediately to your doctor after having symptoms like trouble walking due to feeling like your legs are a ton of bricks, itching/scratching, or for more information you can contact me to ask or just look it up on the web when searching varicose veins.

If you are having problems with your legs, contact your doctor because it can be venous problem or another medical condition.

Anyway, I am learning and observing a lot.

OUT, J

Disturbances in the Air; Learning to Balance ourselves

There are a lot of ways  disturbances bother us.  Take a look at one, Iran. Take a look at the economy. Take a look at North Korea. Even take a look at how no body can agree in the world. People in the world don’t react very well when things go wrong. Every one goes from one extreme to the next. First it was sole Capitalism and now what? We need to start moderating and balancing our lives. We need to start feeling the oomph in ourselves to get our body rolling and to start moving in action. Let our actions be heard! For once in our time continuum let us not see history repeat itself. We need to all learn from our mistakes.

Shouldn’t we be as wise as him;

and as profound and positive as;

Notice how its me!

And continue to turn heads like this man;

Watch yourself and language because someday you just might be someone you may actually like.

Many people in the world today do not consider themselves very positive especially when bad things happened to them when they were a younger. They were afraid so they started developing the dark side of the force. A rapturous fight can lead to suffering so easily.

Remember who you are and remember the better quality of your life. Always remember to just do it!

As I start my day, I start imagining my life as one great adventure fulfilling my life.

Walk in to the light!

OUT, J

Fourth Of July Fireworks in New York City

July 4th celebration Every one! It is important to attract ourselves to positive thinking and be strong minded. Many people fear too much which leads to negativity. People around the world should not falter their lives or even feel jealous of anybody else. Life is a hard long journey. Beware of the people who get in your way to persuade you to do things that are either wrong or not in your best interests. I see how my life is a hard long road, so never take the easy way out. Remember to find the person you love and stick by them always no matter what. For those who choose a life in solitude, live it the way you need to. The fireworks on Fourth of July reminds us to be strong minded and remember the life we made for ourselves. (or the life we are trying to make) Forget the past and a start a whole new beginning…

Enjoy the fireworks!

posting soon enough,

OUT, J

Strong Minds are very important in life

Be Strong! Don’t let the power of persuasion get to you especially when you don’t want to do something you feel is wrong. Just do what you need, not what you WANT!

posting later soon,

OUT, J

July 4th Weekend coming up so here is something I just wrote

Living is a dream come true. A dream which no body can possibly fathom. It gives our right to speak out about our feelings and what we know to be right. Think about it, if you didn’t live on Earth what would you be doing. You would be somewhere in space trying to move along and can’t. Many people may feel unestablished at the moment, but if you can simply move forward you will.

A funny story on the subway the other day. I was reading and in my own autistic state of mind when a homeless man comes up to me trying to gain my attention by putting his face in my face forcing eye contact. He asked me for money and I knew I could not, so I did not. People beg on the streets, trains, or wherever they can. There is no reason for anybody to feel so low like they are a martyr. Everybody has potential and can do the enjoyable most productive way to live; by gaining an honest dollar.

Anybody in this world can be a contributing member of society. Don’t leave anybody behind, just help!
It is the only way to a working world. Work is work and any body can do something.

July 4th is coming soon and so is more updates on DMC!!! Also, “Adam” with Hugh Dancy and Rose Byrne comes out soon enough and I can’t wait. Lot’s of lucky things are happening in my life and especially on the work front.

OUT, J

Space is so infinite, it is sure to have held our Time

Do you think space holds our history on earth?

Be careful, you don’t want to make a bad impression!

OUT, J

Think about it, what more can we do these days!

I know it is very hard to deal with at the time, but we should all think about what more we can do these days to help ourselves live better.  We have 2 choices in life.  Better make a decision quickly because time is running fast.  We could all lie to ourselves and make a decision based on our faults or we could be more honest with ourselves.  Based on my decisions in my life I feel I have made good and poor decisions.  Some of my decisions were based on a weak mind because I didn’t have enough strength to move ahead.  Lately, I have had a stronger mind.  For example, I have been not letting people push me around as much as they used to.  Forgetting the past I can only look forward to have a strong mind without anybody influencing me by persuasion.  I have my goals in life and no body can take that away from me.

It hurts to think about it, but the more we can do these days is by sticking to our ground not letting anybody influence us.  The idea is not to be someone else than yourself, but to just be yourself.  To be myself, I need to continue what I like.  I know I am not an ordinary tech, and I am glad I am not.  If I were an ordinary tech I would be just like everyone else and I don’t care to be.  In this day and age, we don’t need anymore ordinary tech’s out there.  We need techs doing the right things.  Besides soon all Ultrasound tech’s will be licensed by each state besides having the registry from ARDMS.

Yes, my friends, things are changing.  Soon we will be seeing only good jobs being done by good people.  Hopefully we see a change in attitude from everyone.

Rich fields come to us only when we see the light and what we are doing is what we like.

posting later on,

OUT, J

Actions speak louder than words

This post symbolizes my feelings on how so many people are hypocritical. Actually, I don’t know a single person who is not. People need to put their words to actions.

Many people wonder how much it takes to do good. Well if you look at the hypocrisy meter, you see most people are very hypocritical. I know much of the time many people have trouble doing good. Get this Tee Shirt then!

Posting again later on,

OUT, J

R.I.P. Michael Jackson and the Space/Time Continuum

Michael Jackson was a man of integrity, strength, courage, and entertainment. He had a very big heart. His life left many questions to be answered. The death of Michael Jackson yesterday left every one in the world stunned. They had not known what more to say except play tribute to him by having the radios play his songs. You may have had a favorite song from Michael and will probably play it for days until you decide to move on. His music was legendary, his blood ran through his body like endless fuel. Michael Jackson was a gift to the whole world with his talent to entertain us. I know many of you are sitting at home the next day after his death wondering who will be the next big star in music entertainment. There is always another, but we still remember.

Think back to your earliest Michael Jackson memory from when you first heard one of his songs. What do you remember? I remember seeing Thriller. I would stare at the screen endless hours just watching his creative talent come alive in this video. Michael turned in to a zombie and a werewolf with his big red jacket becoming nothing more than a piece of rag. It is the next day after Michael Jackson’s death and he has become the zombie where you saw him in the Thriller video. Beware after midnight he could come out to haunt you for real now.( LOL, only if he had unfinished business! )

Michael Jackson’s death proves life has an ending, but like in Mitch Albom’s book “The Five People You Meet In Heaven,” every ending is also a beginning, we just don’t know it at the time. The time continuum moves along as we live our lives. Some people say history repeats itself. If history repeats itself, then it sure to be scary. By scary I mean, unfortunately no body really learns from their mistakes. People try and alter their mistakes to look different, but in the end its the same mistake. The time continuum results in a cycle. A cycle which is very hard to break. I believe our ultimate goal is to work hard to reach a place in heaven. If not, we return to the cycle. Many people don’t realize this goal till the end. I hope Michael Jackson has his place in heaven now, but that is up to whatever judgment has to be made in the time continuum. Remember the time when Michael Jackson or someone you loved made you smile.

May we live our lives the way it ought to be by trying not to repeat history and break the cycle. We all need to move forward!

We are all the man (or woman) in the mirror so look in the mirror now and see if you could see yourself.

Anyway, I have to begin the day and I will posting again really soon especially my fiction…!

OUT, J