There are many people out there that I can help out too.  The question is how can I help myself first.  There are many things and many ways that we can help ourselves.  Life is a focus on the positive and not so much the negative.  Even though negative stuff happens and some that is really really bad, we still need to block that out and get all the positive energy in control of our own life.

There are probably a bunch of people that I have come across that seemed to channel negative energy to me, and I need to not think of that anymore especially when it only hurts me. Though, some people believe that certain people do that for a reason to test us and figure out if we can block it out.

What about you? Can you block out the negative energy and stay as positive as you want to be?

People test me and test us all the time.  I guess the idea is to not get all upset.

Anyway, we all can help one another out in some way.

out, J

Making mistakes means that we do something that we later regret.   When you like a woman that you find you are not atttracted to at first, yet you get very attracted to her through time, what can you do.   There were woman that I liked in the past due to the fact that I didn’t like them at first and then I developed a huge attraction for them can’t letting go of that.   The woman was not married when that developed, but as I got to know her and know her I got more and more attracted.  Then, something devastating happened, she got married  to a man that led her to move away.  Now when that stuff happens, I can’t let go because I never got to tell her my own feelings before that happened.

Yet, I knew it was not going to work out anyway, then again I guess it turned out like this: Here me out, I feel that she was supposed to be my guardian angel only.  And if you say that you can fall in love with a guardian angel, you must be crazy because guardian angels come into this world for certain reasons in which to help the person at the time and move on.  Never to have  any attraction at all, yet in this case it happened anyway.

There will be more women to come in my life and hopefully that  one of those women will be the woman I fall in love with.

Have you ever come across a guardian angel before without realizing it?

For what do guardian angels purpose in this world because my purpose was I guess to make sure that my life had order in this world where I got what I wanted and made sure that only the right things happened.  I am proving to the world especially to the world I belong helping me in the medical field.

Though, I hoped to become a doctor, I guess I can settle with this.

I can’t wonder when I will see the guardian angel again, yet all I know is that I have to do the things I need to do for myself because if I don’t do that  I will be a failure.

The eternal one up there works in mysterious ways.  There have been other guardian angels in my recent past, and I hope that I haven’t gotten them too upset.  There are a lot of people that are in this world that need help and for those people the eternal one tries his hardest to send out certain people to help out.

Those people will do there darndest to do whatever it takes to make sure a certain person is not a failure even if the person who needs some help getting through this world needs to fight its way against certain other people that try to destroy the creditibility and security of him/her in need of help.

Things happen for a reason.  When parents are stressed, there is always somebody else that the eternal chooses to help someone in need of help to get where he/she wants to be at desperately.

Think of the world as a way of getting through the mission.  When people desperately want to get through the mission and need help the eternal one hears them, sending messages, then people hear it while one person or many people who have the most heart takes the message seeking the person who needs help.  When they find the person who needs help, without realizing it during the time the two people find themselves connected in a different sense of the word connected.   Yet, do we talk about it at first, no, but then we realize it. When we realize it, it is all over.  How many guardian angels come into this world anyway?

Are we all somebody’s guardian angel though?

Like, since I found my guardian angel and she left, do I have certain people I need to help.

There is a friend that I know that I got angry at for certain reasons of what he did to me, yet am I supposed to help this friend find his mojo.

anyway, leads to another posting,

out, J

Tom Brady is very confident.  His teammates are very confident.  And who do they owe their confidence to.  For every great man, lies another great man inside of them that built their confidence.  It could be one man or many men, but for all sakes it is someone.

My question is to Tom Brady, who do you owe your confidence to?

See, I know that when I do things, I know my knowledge, I know my anatomy, I my way of scanning, yet I don’t know it all. I just know what I read.

Many people feel that it may seem like I don’t have confidence or may lack in having my mojo, but all those people can go fly kite, eat cow dung, and choke as they try to eat.

Anyway, all I am saying is that no one can tell anyone they can’t do something or tell them that they are this or that because anyone who says such nonsense can look me in the eye or look that person in the eye and whine like a little baby.

I feel that the history of the National Football League gives every one the notion that anyone can do anything as long as they put their heart and soul into it.

I encourage myself a lot, yet when I first started I felt that I was not good enough in scanning.  Most people thought I just didn’t know what I was doing, but they were wrong.  Most people thought that I sucked, but they were wrong.   The one thing that most people didn’t know was that you have to be patient and move on no matter what you are doing not dwelling, not worrying, and definitely not hesitating.

Think of it this way if you tell someone they are good, they don’t believe it until they feel it, if you tell someone that they are not good also, then they have something even more to prove to that person.

There are so much things to prove in this world. I have so much to prove in this world. And if I can prove so much of what Tom Brady proved even though it is not football, then I become the true amazinJ.

I sit down and speak out my words, “Take pride in what you do, Use the patience that you have, Use the belief that is inside of you, and you will forever prevail.”

Listen to the song Believe by R. Kelly and see the words and listen at the same time. Think of what those words mean and think of what they mean to yourself. Geez, What do you think?

That game gave me the presence that I could do anything just like Tom Brady doing his thing as the Quarterback for the New England Patriots.

I hope Eli Manning learned from tonight and improves for a later date.

I always wanted to be the guy that people can look up to, yet I look up to so many people and Tom Brady is one of those people.

Confidence = ?

anyway, I will post later on,

out, J

Envy is the actual feeling of jealousy.  How many of you feel jealous of the next person and feel that they want to be like them.  Its not right, its not fair, but why do people do that and not realize their potentials as well and their ways of doing things is just as good.

The eternal one didn’t create people to be envious of other people  and you know the story of Cain/Abel. Now does anyone want to wind up like Cain?

posting later on about it as I have something else to attend to now,

Out,  J

This is a topic that is very interesting and will stir up a discussion of comments. When is it right to talk and when do you give somebody you know the space they deserve.   The other question is How long do you give the person space till they want to talk again.

The idea of it all is to not let come to the point where a friend or a person you know very well has to tell you listen, man, I need my space. And then they never talk to you ever again.

How many of you had to tell somebody that and never talk to that somebody ever again?

I have had to do it and I am sure many of you had to do the same.

Lord knows that there is a time to be by yourself and there is a time to be with people.  You can not have it just one way or the other, you must have Balance.

Balance takes time to develop since we are not born to be balanced in life.  We must go through trials and errors before we make that determination for ourselves.

Take for instance when we first  are born there are so many things we do not know that the only thing we know to do is scream and cry or be quiet when we are not screaming and crying.

Then, depending how you learn, some people grow up faster than others. Some people learn more emotions and talking at a very early age while others talk at a much much later stage in life closer to the age of 3 , 4, or 5 to say their first few words.

We watch when we are not talking and by watching we observe and listen.  Most people like to hear themselves talk and not observe.

My grandma tells me she can never be alone and always needs to be with someone ever since she was a little girl.   How could that be?  How could a single person never have the strength to be alone with their own thoughts observing other people or observing nature’s life just like Henry David Thoreau did.

My grandma ain’t no Transcendalist, more like a person who is the opposite.

You can be a loner, you can be a people person, or you can have balance between the two.

Take for instance the fact that people talk to oneanother they will never talk forever because there is never too much to talk about. There are times that what we need to do is  enjoy the presence on earth and do the things we need to do on this planet before talking.

Talking is just a small part of communication, the rest of the big picture is Non-verbal communication.  You must be able to read the nonverbal communication and not talk all the time.

I know that is why I talk a lot because I can not read non-verbal communication, but if I try a little harder than I will talk a lot less.

People will still be your friends if you don’t talk them out of it by talking too much.

I have a feeling though that people get busy sometimes and we must all take strides in order to know when the right time to talk to one of your friends who finally has the time to be with you.   Even when your friends are all married and you are single trying to still talk to them is really hard until you get married yourself.

anyway, posting later on,

out, J

Here is a song for Abby:

Angel by Sarah Maclachlan,

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

Abby the maltese dog is probably an angel now in heaven looking down as she was an angel back then before she died that lasted on this earth for almost 17 years… She reminds us still of what good in this world can bring all of us. She was the bitch of all bitches the female dog of all female dogs. Long live Abby’s Spirit! Take life now and ride it in the wind because you know ABBY the maltese dog is watching every move you make from the heaven’s above. She is even watching every one sleep in their beds now… She is a guardian for all…!

Here is a song for my grandfather, David Rosenheck:

Clocks strikes upon the hour
And the sun begins to fade
Still enough time to figure out
How to chase my blues away
Ive done alright up til now
Its the light of day that shows me how
And when the night falls loneliness calls

Chorus:
Oh! wanna dance with somebody
I wanna feel the heat with somebody
Yeah! wanna dance with somebody
With somebody who loves me

Ive been in love and lost my senses
Spinning through the town
Soon or later the fever ends
And I wind up feeling down
I need a man wholl take a chance
On a love that burns hot enough to last
So when the night falls
My lonely heart calls

My grandfather loved to dance and would dance all sorts of dances dragging my dear old grandma eve everywhere from merengue to tango to salsa to anything you can think of dancing. He was also ambidextrus which is remarkable too because I am too. My grandpa dave would probably be proud of me with I am doing with my life now especially because I am doing my passions in life and not just doing any old job that people would be miserable with. I am doing my passions in the medical field in echocardiography and vascular ultrasound especially since my special interest when I was younger was learning more and more about the circulatory system, MY FAVE! My grandpa always enjoyed learning new things and when my grandma eve told me that he was a writer/poet too I got all feeling geez, that is where I got it from. My hero! Anyway, He was g-d’s precious gift and I hope I make him proud up in heaven wherever he is now. I hope I continue to make him proud… Dance up storm now Grandpa! My latin friends would have loved to dance with you probably… Someday when I am old and grey like he was, I will look back and wonder to myself GEEZ, I made a difference!

Finally to my Grandmother Elaine Ross, Here is a song for her:

(Whispered) Let me be your hero

Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

(Chorus)
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

Would you swear that you’ll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don’t care you’re here tonight

Chorus

I just want to hold you (2x)
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don’t care you’re here tonight
You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero

This song kind of reflects about my grandma elaine because she was a very positive influential person in a lot of people’s lives because she endured so much strength and kindness inside of her. I am sure she would be very proud of me too.

SNUFFY, BUFFY, PEPIPTO, POPOROACHO, FAT GUY, BARBARIAN, ROSS

His song could be this:

Joe Esposito’s song in Karate Kid Part I:

Try to be best
‘Cause you’re only a man
And a man’s gotta learn to take it

Try to believe
Though the going gets rough
That you gotta hang tough to make it

History repeats itself
Try and you’ll succeed

Never doubt that you’re the one
And you can have your dreams!

You’re the best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you down
You’re the Best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you down
You’re the Best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you dow-ow-ow-ow-own

Fight ‘til the end
Cause your life will depend
On the strength that you have inside you

Ah you gotta be proud
starin’ out in the cloud
When the odds in the game defy you

Try your best to win them all
and one day time will tell
when you’re the one that’s standing there
you’ll reach the final bell!

You’re the best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you down
You’re the Best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you down
You’re the Best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you dow-ow-ow-ho-how-ho-own

INSPIRING GUITAR SOLO

You’re the best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you down
You’re the Best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you down
You’re the Best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you dow-ow-ow-ow-own

Fight ‘til you drop
never stop
can’t give up
Til you reach the top (FIGHT!)
you’re the best in town (FIGHT!)
Listen to that sound
A little bit of all you got
Can never bring you down

You’re the best!
Around!
Nothing’s gonna ever keep you down
You’re the Best!
Around!

Anyway, these songs relate well to all these past lives that meant something in this world…

Tying it all together so people understand is that you must have guts, be a hero with positive energy, be creative and willing learn anything new, and to be an angel all in one in order to be a success in the world. From Snuffy to Grandma Elaine to Grandpa Dave to Abby the maltese dog. (by the way snuffy is Snuffy the Bishon Frise and Sebastian the Yorkie I remember bits and pieces of my own memories cause he died when I was 1 and 1/2 years old ) .

Anyway, live life with Love and compassion and never let that give way from what you want to do… ‘Cause that is exactly what I do.

Speak of the night, I gotta go post more,

Out, J