There are many people that believe in Heaven.   Heaven can be of many things.  We shall not talk about that at the moment since we can not predict what is beyond this planet earth.  Some people discuss this and it is not good at all to discuss.   This past friday, I had a discussion with someone who is not jewish, but christian in origin.   It went into a whole talk about about nothingness and the fact that we do not know what g-d is thinking at this very time and who he feels is disobedient to him or not.  though, I agree with him that g-d loves all of us in the world.

Christians have a totally different viewpoint then me and my fellow jewish people.    There are many people in this world that believe the christian way of thinking.   You cannot change a person’s views or traditions when the person has been doing them since they were born, but you can accept it and move on.

My granny is an old fashioned jewish woman in her 80’s that believes we should all stay with in our own and not mix.  I don’t particularly agree with that since everybody has been mixing with one another for so long already that everybody else does it without thinking.  You see it all the time now, interracial/cultural/religious marriages.

People are falling in love whether its within their own or mixing.

Being an aspie myself, I wonder what to do in situations like this especially when this sort of mixing could be the very cause of why asperger syndrome is spreading so rapidly.  Yes, it has been around since the beginning of time when humans were first existed, but there are more reported cases of it now.  so I wonder…

1:150 people have an Autism Spectrum Disorder

You can’t stop people from falling in love, but you can make people aware of the rapid influx of autism spectrum disorders.   And most doctors and professionals of all kinds do not know about ASD’s while some learn about it.

There are so many other Neurotypical people that need to learn about it that the very fact is its very complex.   Now you see organizations like Autism Speaks trying to find a cure and GRASP trying to teach at the same time.    Then, you have organizations helping other aspies get jobs and earn a living since most people like myself want the independence, but …  In new york city area, you have organizations like adaptations at the JCC trying there best to help not just spectrumites but all adults with disabilities  get on their feet and be as independent as they possibly can get.

Its true that the younger the age where someone first learns of the autism, the more the person can succeed better in life.  But, like when I first learned about it in adulthood, there is a bit of resentment and regression that goes on.   When I hear the words well now you know so move on, then I feel I can’t.  Hygiene and straightening up after yourself is very important.

I have a job now in a doctor’s office that requires many multitasking and I am doing good at it considering.  Though, they say that even a neurotypical has trouble multitasking because when the brain tries to do too many things at once, you are bound to make mistakes.    People say that women are the only true multitaskers, but no body is.

anyway, gotta get going,

out, J

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what do these lyrics mean from the band papa roach?

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

And my scars remind me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel...

People are mean and cruel.  Be careful to tear your heart open to people

and only do it to

people you trust. I tore my heart my open to every one around,

 I can't believe it but that

I did that, but it happened.

I know what my life is about, I need to sew it shut.

But, do I sew it shut and never open it

up again, or do open it at the right moments.

or is it too late and people no what's in there

already...

out, J

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There was a minor glitch that happened just when the three of us flew off in to the sky.   The two buddies turned back into themselves and all 3 of us fell straight in to the ocean near the land of latin.

A few hours later, when the ocean had pushed all 3 of us back to the beach.  The woman and her husband found us coughing up water and wrecked to the beach.

the woman who says to me “Is this what its like in Aspergia?”

“Would you like to go?” I asked.

She nodded her head and laughed saying “You seen my land and I want to see your land.”

She gazed in to my eyes  and then her husband came by and  every body started walking back to the house for more latin knowledge for me.

A: Who wants to dance with me?

F and K together yell out, “Not my cup of tea.”

me:  What is dance?

A: You have never known dance before, salsa, meringue, bachata, tango, …?

me: no, we just do the chicken dance or the robot?

A: What’s that?

me: Its our walk sometimes. You have to come to see Aspergia with me sometime.

A: sure, but first let me salsa with you.

F tries to joke around playing the freddie jackson song “you are my lady” at first before playing a salsa song…

Everyone looks at him until he plays the song he needs to play. then he puts on some Tito Puente at first and then some more others.

boy, was this woman a good dancer.  The energy flowing the deck outside so big and the steps that I must take felt so complicated.

The only problem that occured was that with out realizing it her husband was getting annoyed because she was teaching me to dance, but…

A yells out to her husband: You never liked dancing in the first place and whenever I tried to teach you, you turned your nose up.

The music stopped suddenly and the husband and her began yelling back and forth in spanish. Words came out that I had never heard before.

F and K led me out of the place and we went out on to the beach again to build a raft.

But, then a magic wizard came out of nowhere to talk to the three of us.

Wizard: what is love?

the three of us: HUH?

wizard: what is love? how do latin people love and how do aspergians love?

all of us: I don’t know.

wizard:  I think I just saw that tonight.

F: what do you mean? there was no love there.

wizard: oh, yes there was…

K: well, if there was love there, what the heck did I miss.

me: yes, what did I miss?

wizard: why are you saying that? (towards me)
did you notice that woman standing over there watching you dance with your new friend?  I think she is from your land.

me: huh, no way, no one followed me from aspergia to here.

wizard: oh yes they did, cause they were concerned about you.

Me: OH NO! its  my friend Natalia. what is she doing here?

Natalia: Hey J, I walked in to the doors of latin with you because I wanted to find out what you were up to.

Me: Natalia, get back or else…

Natalia: or else, what? I’m staying…

Me and Natalia come to a conclusion that we both will represent aspergia for the rest…

F and K show us the land a bit more, but for miles to come there were nothing but animals trees and fruits of the vine.

then, came the latin carnival at night which from a distance we saw many lights and noise arising.  It sounded like a party, ha, it was…

to be continued…

out, J

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This weekend turned a different corner in life like every weekend does. Granny has a lot of opinions and one of them is that everyone can’t mix and must stay within their own people. Then, there was a whole thing when I was looking for the paper The ONION in the city. I had a itch on my butt, and a man comes up to me and tells me that he saw me scratching my butt. eeeew, How gross! how can a man look at another man scratching your butt.

Anyway, I have a question for my readers about a situation that erupted. What would you do if someone tried to push you around?

There is more before the next episode 2 of Aspergia Greets,

First, Chloe just turned 7 years old on July 27, 2007. OMG, Happy Belated Chloe…

Though Chloe was home alone all day and was in the kitchen with sleeping Abby.

There is a tee shirt I made for DMC’s website I made at the mall, and pictures to come soon… DRIVEMOMCRAZY.COM

so as the commercial break ends, I take to the next episode of Aspergia Greets….

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Solitude

by the owner of this site

I found a rock so clear as crystal
lying on the ground near the frothy crystal lake.
I sat down and saw my loving nature.
I thought about the woman I loved years before
as now I am only in my seniorhood,
remedying through my past.

The past seems useless since
nothing can be changed.
Yet, may be just may be the past
will be guide to the future as
I shut my eyes and go to sleep
I see the past in my dreams.
It goes like this,
the past is the past, you can’t change that
the woman I loved who is now wherever she is now,
turns to me in my dreams and says, “Boy, what happened?”
I turn with a sigh not answering her back, and instead
that is when I go never look back.

May be its for the better,
may be its for the truth,
may be just may be its for the best.
Jolly sings the song with glee,
Cry baby sings the song about sadness and feelings.
But, the truth is for me and her who know its for the best.

We had our moments,
we had our joyful occasions,
about the times that we shared are feelings and thoughts,
the times that we laughed and got a long,
but the times that we cried we held
each other so tight until that faithful day when it was all gone.

She found someone new and I felt all alone.
I never really found that special someone
ever ever again until about one day ten years
down the road I was walking down the street.
Standing was a woman on the street,
leaping to her feet.

She reminded me of the times with my love
of all loves even though it was a different
fish in the sea. she had such great smile,
such great hair, and even the finest way of talking
a man can ask for in a woman.
Oh, what a woman!

We wound up together, marrying with children,
and raised those children to have grandchildren.
then one day, when she died, I sat in my room and
started to cry. I wondered where those years had come
and gone where I sang my life and played in the yard.
Here I am in the yard once more all alone with no one to care for.

When is solitude the moment to be by yourself,
When is there a moment not to be with others
including the one you find and love.
When I was five year old child playing in the yard,
my granny once said “never be alone.”

Never be alone, but I have alone time a lot in my past,
I never understood. Was that lonliness or solitude?
If I was happy then its solitude.
If I was sad then its lonliness.
but if I was a little bit of both in different periods, then
was that solitude or was that lonliness?

I can’t ask my granny now, because I am
what age she was at that time in her life
which was years ago, but I do know this,
when I was lonely I was sad, and when I was
happy I was in solitude, but then when I was
really happy is when I was with the loves of my life.

We may have loves that we meet
and they come in and out of our lives,
whether through changes in life or changes to heaven,
but we are who we are meeting and greeting
accepting that and moving on.
Change is an invaluable lesson we learn in life…

hope you enjoy,

out, J

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